Endo = Baby?!?

2 adoptions I am so excited about!

2010-02-08T14:19:00.002+11:00

I just wanted to pop on and say a MASSIVE "CONGRATULATIONS!!!" to 2 of the bloggers I read often.

The first is YAYA over at http://www.yayastuff.net/. She is an amazing woman who has FINALLY been placed with her son, 4 year old Alex! Please go over and congratulate her if you can =)

The second is Mrs D over at http://babywait.blogspot.com/2010/02/prayers-answered.html -She has gone through a lot of critisism on her blog regarding adoption but still shares her journey with all of us. She was just placed with her future daughter, Finley, due in April! =)

I am bursting with excitement and happiness that these two women will get to be mummies =)

Endobaby!

Possum is now 1! (and Merry Xmas =)

2009-12-25T18:25:00.003+11:00

Hi anyone that is still out there =)

I just wanted to quickly update and say that Possum is now 12 months old! Here she is with Santa, the Slovak and I. She cried her little heart out when we were giving her to Santa for a hold so we had to go in with her. Excuse my delirious daydreaming expression, I was looking at a toy that was meant for Possum =) lol.

Everything is going well with us. I went through a lot of br eastfeeding issues (including bad attachment therefore supply at birth, br east refusal and severe biting) but we are going great guns now. She still has about 4 feeds a day if I'm home (I work 2-3 days a week at my previous job).I am hoping to make it to 18-24 months.

The Slovak and I went through a difficult time about a fortnight ago. Perhaps it was the stress of xmas, I dont know. We went through a violent stage of hurtful words and pushing/shoving, from both of us. I left one night for a few hours. This happened 3 times over 4 days. In the end, we had a huge discussion about it and used a communication technique we learnt from pre-marriage councelling and seriouslly, our relationship has been the rest its ever been since then.

I had an IUD put in, so no periods. I still fear endo may be back however, due to reoccuring symptoms that I had pre-possum. I won't bother getting it checked until the IUD is out and we try for another. This won't be for a few years. I won't let the damn endo freak me out and force me to try for another when we just aren't ready.

I am still reading all my favourite bloggers on my list, and found a few new ones I should add too.

Does anyone know where Mamasoon has gone?!?

Merry Christmas to you all - and for those that are still trying for their miracle, I hope 2010 is your year!

Endobaby.

"Goodnight Sweethearts...well, it's time to go"

2009-04-17T14:44:00.010+10:00

Those who are fans of "Three Men and a Baby" will know that one...or, those who know the song I guess,.

Its time to go I'm afraid.

Possum is ok now, great in fact. I re-established breastfeeding through a lot of hard work and it has paid off. She is 4 months as of 2 days ago and I don't want to be anywhere else than with her. I had to email my work and tell them that Im not going back to work in 6 weeks time as originally suggested, Im going to stay home the full year. If they don't like it, they can fire me.

I really wish you all healthy happy babies and that it happens soon. I WILL be reading your blogs and leaving comments and I will follow your journey until you are all holding your babies in your arms.

Thank you so much for all of your support, it meant the world to me when I needed it the most.

Take care, I will see you in the comments of your blogs =)

I will leave you with a few photos of my darling daughter. She is worth every painful period I ever had and every lap operation for endo...

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its all worth it girls. Please keep trying.

xoxox

Possums health

2009-03-24T21:48:00.002+11:00

she seems to be ok now.

Went and saw a pead who said she caught my virus [ =( ] and her bowels wre having problems digesting the lactose from my milk.

So, she is on lactose free formula for a week and then hopefully it will all pass and she can go back to bre@stfeeding. I miss it actually. Finally got the hang of it and she has to go on to a bottle (which she hated. Took us 2 days of hysterical crying before she took it. Still have to pretend she is going to bre@stfeed ...therefore the Slovak can't feed her).

Anyway - Pam from "not just a Cookie Dream" and "Just Me" sms'd me - she had her baby boy Tristan last week! gah! I knew she was due but this past week has been a nightmare...

so - if you are up to it, mosey on over and say hello...as Im about to now =)

Going nowhere fast....

2009-03-16T17:51:00.003+11:00

Possum is 3 months, as of yesterday. She is sick with her first sore throat (so the GP suspects) and the last 5 days have been a nightmare that aren't going to end anytime soon. I hate it - I don't care about anything other than making her feel better. I don't care if it costs me thousands of dollars or even hurts me....this has made me realise how much I love her....

this blog is gong nowhere fast. I don't have much time and don't have much to say.

Ill come back for a proper goodbye once Possum is settled...in the mean time, I am still reading all your blogs....

How to wrap a baby - for Pam!

2009-02-27T22:00:00.007+11:00

This is for Pam over at "Just me" and "Not just a Cookie Dream".....her bubs is due VERY soon!!!

I do it this way - (but I will give you a website for the other way!)

STEP ONE - make a diamond with your muslin wrap (for Summer)....
fold one corner down and put your bubs in the middle of the folded corner...shoulder at the edge

STEP TWO - Put one arm down along side their body...

STEP THREE - Fold that side over your baby's body and wrap it under the opposite side of their body...

STEP FOUR - do the same on the other side

STEP FIVE - tuck the bottom to one side and underneath...

And you are done! =)

If you want to wrap their arms UP near their chest, here is the other option...

http://www.cradle2kindy.com.au/wrapping-demo.html

Possums birth story * with photos *

2009-02-25T16:40:00.001+11:00

is 2 posts below!

I was working on it as a draft for a few days, and now it won't post as a new post...but I want you guys to read it!

and thank you everyone for your kind comments about our Charlie...I'm going to check out all your blogs now - and find out what LFCA is!

Charlie has been put down...

2009-02-23T15:31:00.005+11:00

We think he got hit by a car. He ran away for 2 nights and came back covered in pee and something wrong with his back legs. Turns out his spine was broken just below his pelvis and he had no control over his bladder / bowels.

He had a week on meds to recover, but he didn't. I was constantly cleaning his towels in his bed and his room as there was stuff everywhere....and I don't really have the time when I am with Livi alone.

So I left him at the vets to be put down today.

...very sad.

the below photo is one of the recent ones...I was pregnant and Charlie got all affectionate again after a period of being a little bugger! Please excuse how sh!t I look...

Possum's Birth Story

2009-02-20T22:16:00.017+11:00

Stats

Due Date – Thursday 11th December
Date Born: Monday 15th December
Time: 2:34 pm
Weight: 3.9 kilos
Length: 52 cm
Head circumference: 35.5 cm
Eyes: Blue
Hair: medium brown

Sunday 30th November – 11 days till Due Date

Found out that Possum was still Posterior and only 20% engaged. I had a session of acupuncture to try to turn her around and help her engage. I also used my fit ball all the time.

Friday 5th December – 6 days till Due Date

5 days after my previous appointment, Possum is now almost fully Anterior and 80% engaged! I then make the huge mistake of not longer sitting on my fit ball…..

I have more acupuncture to start things moving (I had such a strong reaction during the session I got all hot and sweaty and needed to pant while breathing).

Start getting waves of nausea throughout the day

Wednesday 10th December – 1 day till Due Date

Possum turned back to Posterior and disengaged back to 20%! Back on the fit ball! I also had an acupuncture session that day to try to turn her back around and engage her.

Sunday 14th December – 3 days past Due Date

Around 2:30 am I started to have severe period pain that started in my back and moved around to my lower abdomen. I keep getting up to pee to relieve the pressure and hoping that it will pass.

This happened for a few hours and I couldn’t get back to sleep. I started timing them at 7:47. They were lasting for anywhere from 15 seconds to 40 seconds and coming anywhere from 6 – 20 minutes apart. This is when I woke the Slovak up and he started to help me time them.

I was still feeling ok and was able to jump on the forums to let everyone know that I thought something might be happening, but I wasn’t sure if it was real labour or not.

The Slovak's brother wanted to come over to hang out, but we didn’t want anyone to know I was possibly in labour. We arranged for my other support person, my sister to come over and then the Slovak went to his brother’s house with my assurances that nothing would happen for hours and I would be ok with my sister. Worse comes to worse, he could meet us at the hospital!

So my sister and I watched the whole series of “High School High” while I sat on the fit ball and used my tens machine for the pain. I also went in the shower for long periods of time but had to get out once my fingers became painful from getting all pruney.

The Slovak came home in the afternoon (more than 12 hours after the contractions started) eager to take me to the hospital after hours and hours of irregular yet increasingly more painful contractions. I told him they weren’t regular yet and the hospital would send me home if I wasn’t dilated enough. Besides, I wanted to spend more time at home and was coping ok with the pain. I only swore once – my sister put on some music and one song annoyed me so I said “I hate this f**king song!”. =) Luckily she changed it for me.

Around 8 pm the contractions were becoming more regular, every 5 or minutes, so we rang the hospital (silly woman on the phone wanted to talk pleasantries with me but I was annoyed at her telling me that this was “normal” and chucked the phone to The Slovak when I had another contraction).

I was placed under observation with fetal monitors measuring the baby’s heartbeat and my contractions (showing they were coming every 3 minutes). I also had an internal, which showed that I was only 3 cm dilated! (after 17 hours of contractions). The internal hurt like hell too. All this time I still didn’t lose my mucus plug, see a bloody show or have my waters break. The reason my contractions were so close together yet I wasn’t far dilated was due to Possum being posterior. This was going to be a loooong labour!

So we went home around 10 pm. I tried to have a shower but there was no freaking hot water! So while I was shivering and trying to make a bath, my sister and The Slovak were desperately boiling water in the kettle and in big pots on the stove. I eventually got my bath and tried to sleep in it while The Slovak slept on a doona next to me on the floor in the dark.

Monday, 15th December - 4 days past due date

The pain started getting so bad that I remember thinking “Just give me the f**king epidural NOW!”. We weren’t timing the contractions as we were all so tired, but once the pain got to be too much we went back to the hospital (around 2 am Monday morning, 24 hours after the first contractions started).

I was now 6 cm dilated and being a little more noisier during my contractions than I needed to be, to ensure they didn’t sent us home. I asked for some pain relief – Morphine. They gave me a shot in the butt which hurt but let me rest between contractions. They said we could stay and a shower was suggested. I was looking forward to this seeing as I couldn’t have one at home!

So I got naked again and sat on the chair with my head resting on the metal hand railing. I slept between contractions and sucked on ice to keep me cool.

Time seemed to go really fast for me as I was able to sleep for short periods. Not so for my support team. They told me later they were both thinking “when is this going to END?!?”

I had another internal that morning (more than 30 hours since first contractions, and 6 hours since coming into the hospital the second time). I was 7 cm dilated….only 1 cm more than last time! I was a little annoyed at this and jumped at the chance to have my waters broken.

A few hours later I was 9 cm! But, I had an anterior lip (some of my cervix lip was blocking her head). This was not good news. The midwife tried to unblock it and turn her a little (as she was still posterior) during my next contraction (this hurt the most, I cried out for her to stop and The Slovak started crying from seeing me in so much pain) but it didn’t work. She left to give me half an hour to let it fix itself which it did luckily.

Another midwife checked on me and said she could see her head all the way up there! This motivated me on and I was told I was 10 cm dilated and I could start to push!

This is when things got difficult. I was told how to push (Like I was doing a big poo…lovely) and couldn’t do it the right way at first. I tried all different positions like leaning over the bed on a bean bag and on all fours but the best position that worked for me was on my back, with my legs on the midwives shoulders or knees and pushing up against them. I also was told to hold my thighs apart =) Charming position but it really worked for me!

I was pushing in each contraction and getting really tired as she wasn’t coming out. Usually you are only meant to push for 1 hour, but I was pushing for over 2 hours.

I asked for a mirror so I could see everything. My sister was holding it but the angle was totally off, so I kept straightening it with my foot which the midwives thought was hilarious.

I could see the top of her head, but it just wasn’t crowning. I started pushing even when I wasn’t having a contraction (but the midwives didn’t know this) and for longer than when I was told. The head midwife came to assist and kept saying in her Chilean accent “Don’t estop, Don’t estop, keep pushing, keep pushing! No. No. you can push more!”. She was a great help with her tough love! The Slovak was also trying to motivate me by saying “doing well!” but he said it so many times it was annoying me. But, some how I said nicely “honey, please stop saying that!”.

I was told if she didn’t come out soon, they would need to use the vacuum. I was really worried about this as I wanted to stay in the birth centre and not be transferred (as its classed as a high risk birth). And I would rather something happen to me than to her to get her out. The doctor was called and they gave me an anesthetic and cut me (I was only told 2 seconds before it happened, but I was happy something was happening!). I was prepared for the cutting sound (thanks to the Maternal forum girls) but I felt the end of the scissor blade on my thigh (as he was cutting slightly to the side) which felt a bit gross. The Slovak and my sister told me that when he first cut me, a huge spurt of blood splurted out like a fountain or something you see in a movie. Shame I missed it, they moved the mirror!

After the episiotomy I saw this huge cut and thought she would slide out….nope, still was pushing with the threat of vacuum being used or worse.

After what seemed like forever, the vacuum packaging was about to be opened when I pushed her head out! She was very pale blue and very chubby. Everyone was surprised how big her head was. No wonder I had problems pushing her out.

The next few pushes were very painful, as the doctor was pushing on my stomach, trying to turn her around. After a few more pushes, she slid out. The Slovak started sobbing he was so happy =)

Turns out, she had her cord around her neck. Nothing was said about it, but The Slovak and I noticed, just before he cut the cord.

She was put on my belly. The midwives started telling the doctor that Possum wasn’t moving or crying much. She picked up my baby’s hand and dropped it, showing how lifeless she was.

I still wasn’t worried, as I knew babies were blue when they were first born.

So they took her, wrapped her up and gave her to The Slovak, who tried to suction her mouth and lungs as she had fluid in them. She still wasn’t crying or turning pink so the paediatrician was called.

Meanwhile, I was being stitched up, with The Slovak holding my hand. It was painful, but I wasn’t really noticing as I was watching Possum being rubbed and suctioned right next to me on the bed.

Less than 30 mins after she was born, she was in Special Care with respiratory problems and “duskiness” (blue colour). She was placed in a humidicrib but needed only a little amount of extra oxygen.

She had IV’s put in her arm and given antibiotics in case she had a chest infection, and constant heel pricks to check her blood sugar level. It was really hard to see her like this at first. I couldn’t pick her up and when I was eventually able to, there were cords everywhere.

My first official hold was late that night, when I was almost sleeping sitting up (I hadn’t slept in almost 48 hours). I held her against me, in my shirt “Kangaroo hold” style.

It was so sweet and special. She was so soft.

She was released from special care 48 hours later, and we took her home 3 days after she was born!

The post about my endo coming back...

2009-02-12T15:38:00.004+11:00

so. My last surgery for my severe endo was over a year ago (on our 1st wedding anniversary might I add!).

When I was pregnant, I obviously didn't have periods and thought I would be safe, at least for a little while. So many people told me that being pregnant would "cure" my endo. Yes, it might for some people, but I was and still am realistic that due to the severity of my endo and suspected adeno, I was in for the long haul. Pregnancy may keep away for a little while, but not forever.

A few tmes during my pregnancy I had shooting pains in my abdomen / uterus. I had read on an American Endo Forum that another pregnant member with endo had the same symptoms ad suspected that her baby had kicked an area where endo had survived. This was a little depressing. I mean, sure, pregnancy stops your periods but who's to say that the little endo bastard growths hadvn't thrived when I was unable to have an operation? Last time my endo had come back with a vengence after only 18 months, with smyptoms felt 6 months prior. Thats only one year of being pain free. (on a side note - another depresisng fact - every year I will have to have an operation?)

Now that Possum is here, I am breastfeeding and so far have not had a period. Thank god. But, the day will come when I will stop breastfeeding....and the endo will more than likely come back.

Every one will tell me to have another baby....the longer I am pregnant / breastfeeding, the less time I will be in pain....which I kind of resent. I don't want to be forced to have a child just because I want his or her's existance to cure me or alleviate my pain. And I know this condition afects my fertility, but I refuse to try for another for that reason. Stupid maybe, but I just HATE endo for forcing me into a corner that people without it don't have to consider.

So, I am going to get a Mirena IUD coil. Its meant to help dramatically with endo and almost completely halt periods. Sounds good to me! And, its a great contraceptive....

so - they are my thoughts. I know I might be a bit blase (sp?) about the whole thing, but I'm stubborn and don't want this f**king endo to dictate my life choices......

Gift from a fellow blogger...

2009-02-07T16:39:00.004+11:00

Pam - (from Not just a Cookie Dream and Just Me) who was my Post it Girl...sent me the following for Possum............

sooooooo cute!!! Obviously she won't be wearing it for awhile, but come Winter I'll post more pics!

I have something to send you too Pam...just a matter of finding the time to get to the post office!!!

also a photo that will make you laugh - Possu having a quick bath in the bathroom sink =) She's getting a bit too pudgy for it I think =)

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2nd post of the day - PICS! -

2009-02-03T16:47:00.005+11:00

go and read the one below first =)

these photos were taken a few weeks ago of our chubba bubba...in her cute little blue and white polka dot dress! it bearly fit her!

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I don't have time to scratch my a$$!

2009-02-03T14:43:00.002+11:00

You know how they should test you to see if you are ready for motherhood? Ask you to pat your head and rub your tummy at the same time! I'm rocking Possum with my foot in the rocker (bad mummy, she should be in her bassinette!), typing with one hand and pumping my b00b with the other (Possum is on expressed brea$t milk 99% of the time, formula maybe once or twice a week).

I have been trying to read all your blogs and my forums, but its just so hard. Possum doesn't like sleeping much during the day at all...she is ok at night time (wakes every 2-4 hours, averaging every 3 hours) but won't have a bar of it during the day. I think coz shes so chubba and big, she thinks shes an adult that doesn't need to sleep during the day =) Im going to a settling class on Thursday to pick up some tips.

Next time I get on Ill try to add some recent pics....and talk about my endo coming back.

2nd post of the day! * more pics, taken today*

2009-01-09T00:26:00.003+11:00

Pam - yep...I suggest getting yourself a manual pump for around $50...will definately help, even if you plan on breastfeeding!

updated photos, taken today! 3 weeks 3 days old!...and all of them are of her asleep!!!!!! =)

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3 weeks 3 days old....Pic

2009-01-08T15:17:00.004+11:00

I am so sorry I haven't been on recently. Its so hard to even get dressed in the day let alone get time to surf the net! I'm not complaining though =)

Possum is beautiful and gets more beautiful every day. She is a little tank though =p now 4.9 kilos with her nappy on! Thats 1 kilo more than she was when she was born...in only 3 weeks! Must be the combination of formula and breast milk we have been feeding her.

The breast feeding didn't go so well unfortunately =( I must not have had enough...she is a hungry baby and grows fast! So, we were feeding her breast milk and then comping with formula. Then she slowly started to go off the breast (many tears shed over this by myself...I felt like I had let her down and wouldn't be bonding the same way with her =( ). We hired an electric pump yesterday, but I have just been using it manually. I have only been getting 80-90 mls, and she has double that! So, no wonder she wasn't getting enough. We now feed her expressed breast milk and then formula....its a shame, but I have had to let it go. And, she is being fed and is healthy, so thats the main thing. I have to put my personal feelings about it aside.

and this way, the Slovak can help feed her also.

Last night she was up every 3.5 hours, which was great. This morning she wanted to be fed every hour though! little buggalugs!

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I just got through reading a lot of your blogs...congrats to Mrs Woggie and Zoe on their pregnancies! (and esp to Zoe on her twins!!!) . It makes me so so happy to read your annoucements =) Being a mother is just so amazing....I'm still in shock and amazed that we made such a beautiful little thing =)

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Attached is a little sneak peek of Possum on daddy....this was when we

were still in hospital, so awhile ago =) will try to add more next time!

I just adore her chubba arms and legs =) I can't stop kissing them!!!

Professional Possum photos

2008-12-22T13:25:00.003+11:00

taken yesterday....she didnt want to fall asleep for aggggges...and pooped on daddy and whizzed on me (i got lucky i think!). sorry my typing is awful, possum is bre@stfeeding right now so I only have one hand.

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nights are loooooooong...she only wants to feed for 10 mins and then doesnt want to sleep....when will this ease up a bit??!!??

xoxox

I'm back with possum!

2008-12-19T16:00:00.004+11:00

Naaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwww.....all you girls are amazing!!!!!!!! I just read through every single comment....I almost cried myself reading them!

I wish I could be on here for ages and catch up and put all the photos up etc, but everything here is in slllllllooooooooowwww mmmoooooooo! (slow mo for the slow mofos, lol....then again, it might make more sense to them! =)

I have resized some photos to post here.....about 40 out of 400, so I did pretty well! Will *TRY* to post them today =)

We are just sooooo happy. I can't even begin to tell you how I / we feel Possum...lol....too formalis gorgeous and healthy. (Please don't mention her name on other forums if you know me there girls!!! thank you!). She gave us a bit of a scare but she is fine now. Slightly jaundiced but that will pass. She's a chubba bubba! 3.9 kilos at birth and only lost 190 grams over the last few days (they can lose up to 10%, so 390 grams).

She is breastfeeding well after a rocky start. My nipples were killing yesterday, but now I have nipple sheilds its much better. She feeds for up to an hour each time and has about 3 hour breaks, so I am very well rested from last night. Shes due for another one in about 30 mins.

I will try to organise some photos soon and her birth story.

THANK YOU PAM so much for being my P.I.G! You are too cute....I'm glad you stuffed it up a bit, made it more exciting, LOL =) I laughed so much when I saw your boo boo. hehe. No probs darl, don't stress. Thank you for letting me sms you whenever I wanted and for replying. I think you need to visit me and Possum up her before Cookie arrives =)

Will update when I can =)

xoxoxoxoxo
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Aunty Piggy has more updates!

2008-12-17T12:59:00.003+11:00

Yesterday, 16 December 2008, Endobaby sends me a text message:

Olivia Jade born 15 Dec at 2.34pm after 24hours irregular contractions & 12 hour regular contractions. She was feeding well but just then didn't have any of her last feed so she might have to go on a drip or tube. Bit sad but she will get there. She's so soft with chubby cheeks.

So, Aunty Piggy was praying the whole of last night for our baby Possum that everything will be ok.

And this morning, 17 December 2008, at 9.57am, aaahhh, I received an early text message that made my day:

Livi will be taken off the monitors in a few hours! We are very excited. She will be in my room tonight & will see how we go overnight.

Great news, isn't it? I'm looking out of my window and whatcha know, I see the sun FINALLY (cuz we've been having thunderstorms and gloomy skies for the past week)!!!

Yeah, a great day it is, indeed...A GREAT DAY.

With Much Love,
Aunty Piggy

This Aunty Piggy should be fired!

2008-12-15T21:16:00.004+11:00

Ok, Aunty Piggy didn't read Endobaby's message properly yesterday! OOPSIE!!! In all my excitement, I thought she had given birth from her first text message!

So, she sends me a text message this afternoon at 5pm:
Possum was born today at 2.34pm. She is 3.9kg. She is in special care in a humidicrib as her oxygen is low. Not serious though. She has dark hair n blue eyes. Chubby. Looks like 3D photo!

Now, everybody, let's do this together, AWWWWWWWWW!!!!!....to dark hair, blue eyes and cute baby Possum.

Sorry guys for giving you the wrong info yesterday! My bad! Aunty Piggy should be fired from the news desk!

Please say a prayer for Possum and that she'll be out special care very soon.

With Much Love,
Aunty Piggy

ps Now that I know I suck at being a Miss Piggy, I think I should stick to my day job - annoying my husband. :)

This Little PIGGY would like to say....

2008-12-14T17:24:00.004+11:00

that Possum's finally here!!!! And Endobaby has done such a great job!!! I will leave it to Endobaby to give you more details when she gets back.

Happy Birthday, sweet Possum! There are many bloggy aunties loving you already!!!

Anyway, would like to leave a poem for our dear baby Possum.

A wee bit of heaven
Drifted down from above
A handful of happiness
A heartful of love
A mystery of life
So sacred and so sweet
The giver of joy
So deep and complete.
Precious and priceless
So lovable too
The world's sweetest miracle
Sweet Possum, it's you.
- By Helen Steiner Rice

With Much Love,
Aunty Piggy

LATEST UPDATE:
I woke up this morning at 7am to a text message from Endobaby that says:
7cm dilated. Waters broken as have not progressed much in the last few hours. Getting 2nd morphine needle. Been in shower for 4hours. Possum will be here soon!

HOLY SHIT! If I were working in People's magazine, I'd get fired! So sorry, I must have gotten all excited and thought, Possum's here when I got her first message!! I'm not sure what's happening there but I'll keep you guys updated once I hear anything. You see, this is what happens when an infertile friend gets wayyyy too excited for another infertile friend ready to pop!

Somethings happening

2008-12-14T10:14:00.002+11:00

Had a few sharp pains last night while watching "The Seige" (good movie!) and then woke up at about 2:30 am with a dull ache....then this turned into contractions...

they weren't very often...I woke up about once an hour to go and pee as I was woken up by the pain.

this morning I got up at 7:30 and they were coming every 6 mins, last about 20 seconds....woke up the Slovak and we timed them...they got more painful and closer together, but they were all over the place....every 6 mins, then 3, then 4, then 6 again etc. lasting between 20 and 45 seconds etc...

I am on the fit ball now, using a TENS machine and already used the shower once...contractions seem to be every 7 mins now....

ill update you when I can!

I'm still here....

2008-12-13T19:00:00.002+11:00

aghhhhhhh. I'm getting seriously sh!tty now....I can't sleep due to peeing every 30 mins and not being able to lie comfortably for more than 3.5 seconds....I always have to sit forward on my fit ball or be on all fours (a position which my former untreated dislocated knee loves!) and I'm sweating like a pig even with the a/c on.

I know I know, Im whinging. I should be grateful...and I am. Im just also kinda scared....believe it or not, but I still have DBT (Dead baby thoughts). Remember that story I told you about the Slovaks cousin having a still born? yeaaaaaah. Plays on my mind. She is not moving as much anymore and it's freaking me out. I just want her out and safe here with us.....

No other news I'm afraid....today we went for a 20 min walk and had to stop as it was too f##King hot (31 degrees). thats it. I slept and ate and we had a "Family Guy" Marathon.

thats it.

Come on babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

and bring some good luck to all those still trying to their little miracles......

Possum moved back to the wrong position =S

2008-12-11T13:31:00.002+11:00

posterior again....and only 20% engaged. Found out last night.

I had accupuncture yesterday to bring her on, and today I told them she was the wrong way, so they added that smokey thingy to make her turn. I have to try and lean forward or be on all fours where possible.

I put some Evening Primrose Oil up there too, now its all nice and squishy and soft, ready for her to come out =)

so...hopefully something will happen tonight....

*fingers crossed*

xoxo

You must all read this funny comment left....

2008-12-07T19:58:00.005+11:00

From Pam, my P.I.G (read two posts below if you have no f**king idea what a P.I.G is!)

"My ears are positively glued to my mobile! My dad messaged me the other day and I told him, DON'T MESSAGE ME ON MY MOBILE! CALL ME ON MY HOME PHONE! I HAVE A VERY IMPORTANT MESSAGE COMING THROUGH WITHIN THE NEXT FEW DAYS!!!!! *lol*I.CAN'T.WAIT.((((hugs)))"

haha. Pam, darling, I don't think Possum will be here in the next few days....I'm hoping the end of the week. So, let your poor father message you =) lol.

The Slovaks parents came over today. His mother wants us to call an ambulence when I start going into labour..........

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wtf?!? Dude - its 20 mins away, and labour takes HOUUUUUUUUUUURS! if like, a head came out, or I was bleeding like a stuck pig, alright, but sheesh. Talk about panicking. Im trying to take it easy and RELAX (dreaded word!) and act as if women do this all the time.....it's not fatal f.f.s!

I told her they won't send one, and it will take hours.

And to mind her own f**king business.

No, I didn't, But I was thinking it. She just got us a new baby monitor after all =)

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No other news. Possum hasn't shown any interest in the outside world.

Ready for accupuncture Wednesday morning =)

Possum is getting ready to pop!

2008-12-05T16:38:00.004+11:00

^ hmn, I just re-read that and it looked like "poop" hehe.

Saw the midwife this morning.

5 days ago - she was only 20% engaged, and had to turn 90 degrees to be facing my back.

this morning - she was 60% engaged and only has to turn 45 % to face my back!

Wooooooo Hooooooooooooooooo! Good little girl! Im guessing the accupuncture and using the fitball and all the other small things I have been trying has been working!

The midwife was amazed at how quickly she has moved down....=)

Need to read all your blogs now =)

P.S - yes, I know the last post was a tease. That T'WAS the plan!!!!!!! =P * suckers*

I'm so excited to announce.......pics

2008-12-03T13:56:00.007+11:00

That I have a Post it Girl (P.I.G) for my blog =)

Pam from both blogs http://ttcwithendo.blogspot.com/ (Just Me) and http://notjustacookiedream.blogspot.com/ (Not just a Cookie Dream) has volunteered to log onto my blog for me and let you all knnow when Possum is here =)

I will send her an SMS so you guys will find out not long after. For those that are members of a certain baby forum, PLEASE don't mention anything there. Two reasons, being that I have a P.I.G there, and I don't want them to know her name =) So...feel privillaged =)

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Now the pics...thought I would update the tummy pics...

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Should have the net at home tomorrow =)

You are all sick =)

2008-12-01T15:48:00.001+11:00

Ya'll WANTED to see pics of my big disgusting mucousy 'bloody show' (the one that doesn't yet exist!) - didn't ya?!? Ya freaks.

=P

Don't worry, I will gladly show you when it does show its late little butt....and I might even be mean and not give you a warning =)

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Possum is still only 20% engaged, but the midwife said she has been like that for awhile now so she shouldn't move out at least. Good news = she moved back to looking into the middle / side...so, shes no longer facing the front. She needs to face the back though. So, I have to turn her 90 degrees....

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I just had my first ever accupuncture session to try to turn her around....followed by glorious massaging of hands and feet. I feel so chilled out and relaxed right now. The massage was great, nice and firm and almost made me fall asleep....

The accupuncture was interesting. She put in 2 needles, one on each pinky, right next to the nail. Reminded me of the old Japanese torture tactics to allied forces in the Prisoner of War camps during WWII.....course, they just used bamboo =) lol. It hurt a bit, but then it was ok. Then she used this smelly stuff and burnt it near my feet....twas nice and warm.

Funny, when she started, Possum started moving a lot....and when she pulled them out, Possum stopped moving =) heres hoping it helped to move her a little.

Im not sure whether I should go back for another session on Wednesday, or just wait till my next hospital appointment on Friday to check if she has moved. I do have some of that smelly burny stuff to use at home....

I will go back next week to get them to start labour for me =)

off to read your blogs.

p.s -

library staff must love me here =p

I thought it was happening last night...pics

2008-11-27T13:09:00.005+11:00

WARNING - **GROSS THREAD***

well.....I resorted to to dreaded $*x....and, it wasn't as bad as I thought =) I was a bit mean and made him ah...improvise a bit before hand, so it wouldn't DRAG on....ah, I mean....last such a lovely long time! =)

Todays is Thursday. Did it Tuesday night....felt nice and stretched (ew) and relaxed...slept quite well after that =). Did it again last night....and, for a little while I thought my waters had broken. The only reason I thought this, was the huge amount of leaking....this didn't happen the night before!!!

I read in a pregnancy book, if you don't know your waters have broken, to put on a pad, lay down and see if more gushes out when you stand up 20 mins later.

Yep, I got the gushing!

I didn't mention anything to the Slovak. This guy would freak out and take me to the hospital, bags upacked (I know I know, I should do them now!) to get checked out.

But I thought, if I start feeling pains, I will know.

Well, I started feeling pains. Then I thought, if I wake up in the middle of the night, I will know.

slept fine! =) so, no waters.

and besides, I still have my plug. How can the bathtub be drained if the plug is still in (yes, my uterus is the bathtub!!!).

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Heres a few pics Annie sent of me with little Jessica....

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Will try to get online again next Monday or something - again from the Library!

Just a quick one from me - 2 more weeks to go!

2008-11-25T15:18:00.002+11:00

My net downloads have been exceeded...yes, Im writing this from the Library!

Possum is

* only 20% engaged...should be 100% by now!
* turned posterior! Should be anterior = facing the back. Little cheeky bugger! reminds me of myself, lol.

I am so over it and just want to hold her and kiss her and to see the Slovak with her....

Might have to resort to $*x! OMG! =o

will try to update again this week...another Library trip!

xoxoxo

some updated photos...

2008-11-16T19:30:00.004+11:00

Here is the latest of me

36w1d

and to compare..........

30w4d

and

24w3d

just a quick one - 1 month to go!

2008-11-13T15:40:00.004+11:00

Holy cow =O less than one month to go!

I wrote a whole post 2 days ago and my stupid net cut out...which will more than likely happen again...

I said that I will post pics of Annies baby and myself when she emails them to me. She only got home yesterday, so I will be nice and give her a rest =)

I have been sleeping in until 12 and then doing maybe one thing per day...the rest is watching tv or reading or just hanging out. Today I went to the shops for 2 hours to spend some gift vouchers...bought some nappies on sale (126 for $28!!!) and some n!pple cream and strech mark cream...not that I have any marks yet, but I just love the way it feels. I will probably get them in the last few weeks.

Im sorry I haven't been updating as much as I would like to...I still find time to read your blogs nearly everyday =)

Annie has had her baby...

2008-11-07T19:57:00.003+11:00

Annie from Journeys into Motherhood...many of those who post here were on her blog roll and I actually found you through her =)

She was due yesterday, but bubs wasn't engaging. After an interal on Monday bubs still wasn't engaged so they booked her in for a c-section today!

So, today I got a message from Annie saying;

"Jessica Grace H was born at 12:32 pm today 50 cm 3.7 kilos. She is beautiful and we are over the moon"

(I hope that is right, the Slovak is talking on my phone right now so its all from memory!)

I will be visiting her tomorrow night with a few pressies.

Annie was the first one I told that I thought I might be pregnant (after the Slovak of course). I remember how excited she was for me...and now I am estatic (sp?) for her!

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Still haven't loaded the pics of me bathing my little 2nd cousin....will do as soon as I have the time. Prob not until Monday

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YEAH OBAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

My Pro pregnancy shots...

2008-11-06T14:31:00.005+11:00

Well, I am back from our most Southernest (did I just make that up?!?) state. Visited the family and got to spend time with my little 2nd cousin. I will post pics in the next few days of my trying to figure out how the fudge to bath a baby....luckily the Slovak and I are going to some Antenatal classes on Saturday! we have no clue...

Below is a sneak peek at the professional pregnancy photos we got done this weekend just passed. I can't wait to see all of them....we will be getting some done of Possum when she is born also.

Nothing much else to report. I have a docs appointment on Monday, 2nd baby shower this Sunday (agh) and antenatal classes on Saturday...

oh oh - VISITING ANNIE from JOURNEYS TO MOTHERHOOD! her due date is today...Jnr is not yet engaged, so she is having a c-section TOMORROW! Im probably going to visit Saturday night....will take lots of photos =)...oh, and I know the sex...she told me weeks ago! =p hehe.

will chat more in the next few days ladies...off to read your blogs!

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Its my last day at work today!

2008-10-31T10:06:00.003+11:00

and I am SO freaking excited!

I even wore a dress to mark this event...usually unheard of from me =) Only thing weirder is me wearing high heels. pfffffffffft!

Everyone keeps asking me if my work is going to "take me to lunch"....in fact, I have said "I don't know" so many times, I actually snapped at The Slovak last night for asking me (raging hormones anyone?). Im so nice that I apologied....12 hours later....

We are having pregnancy photography tomorrow. I hope it doesn't rain as we would like to get some outside....now I have to run home tonight, chose some outfits and get the crappy dust of the tables,....that stuff builds up so quicky! I only cleaned it last weekend.

My, this is a riveting post, isn't it?!? Have you all gone to sleep?!? lol.

I am flying tomorrow night with my sister to another state down south...ope I don't freeze my b00bs off...we are visiting my favourite aunt and cousin...my cousin gave birth in June and I haven't yet seen her. And, I will be missing out on her wedding, as its Dec 20....yeah, don't think Im going to make it! And the Slovak refuses to travel with a newborn...he's very protective of Possum, and sometimes tells me not to prod her to make her move.

It's extreamly cute =)

No Friday Funnies today - I think I may have to stop this tradition, not being at my superfast work computer anymore from now on.

I will be back next Thursday!

Im off to read your blogs now!

xoxo

33w4d tummy photo + baby shower pics

2008-10-28T10:21:00.007+11:00

My "Friend" Baby Shower was last weekend. My forum friends, uni friends and high school friends were invited. I am having a seperate one for the family in 2 weeks time...there will be about 30 ppl there...I just can't fit them into our little house!

Here is a selection of photos...

My sister J is the one in the pink dress on the left...

Playing "pass the dirty story" game....M laughing her @rse off...

L had to show her bra in a "Pass the Parcel" dare....so K decided to give them a bit of a feel! lol

L had to impersonate Michael Jackson and thought it was hilarious...

My sister and I (im on the right...dark photo!)

All the beautiful presents my dear friends gave me....honestly, too much =)

M passing the Parcel...

S, E and Annie from Journeys to Motherhood (deleted her blog!) She is due in like a week and she still drove an hour to come =)

S, M and K chowing down on food I / we made =)

Now tummy photo....

33w4d...at Palm Beach...where they film a tv series Home and Away....

When I post up the results of the "pass the dirty story" game, I will post them here =)

No Friday Funnies...Dedicated to Mrs Woggie

2008-10-24T12:58:00.003+11:00

Mrs Woggie (http://the-woggies.blogspot.com/) has been through a lot recently.

She had a lap about 6 months ago, and told she had 6 months to get pregnant before they should try I.V.F (sound familiar?!?). She got pregnant on her 2nd cycle...and lost the bubba a few weeks later.

A few days ago, I found out she was pregnant again.

She started spotting yesterday.

I can't link to her new blog, as it's password protected. I can link to one she is updating, but her family knows about this blog so she hasn't announced anything yet. So please be careful regarding any comments...

I just wanted to say that I am thinking about you K....you are an amazing person and I KNOW you will have your little baby...I don't know when, but I know it will happen.

I was listening to this song and I thought about you, so I thought I would post it. It doesn't offer any solutions or quick fixes or even a happy ending...it just shows that I am thinking about you and this is how you *might* be feeling right now.....(obviously, I have no idea and could be totally wrong...).

(Slightly modified to reflect your situation K...)

- Written by the Carpenters...

Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world,
`cause your'e not with me anymore?

Why do the birds go on singing?
Why do the stars glow above?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when I lost you, love.

I wake up in the morning and I wonder
why everything's the same as it was.
I can't understand, no I can't understand,
how life goes on the way it does!

Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when you said good-bye.

xoxoxo

We had a scare the other night...

2008-10-23T13:19:00.002+11:00

***BEWARE - POSSIBLE T.M.I!***

Monday night...kept going to the loo...was pretty severe....was getting painful cramping too which was freaking us out a bit! (I have read that when you are going into labour, your body clears itself out...I knew it WASN'T labour, but it could have been!)

Then I had the urge to throw up...so I grabbed the little bin and everything was coming out everywhere ...AND IT WOULDN'T STOP FOR AGES! thank god for that bin.... this happened a few times, then stopped.

Tuesday morning was the same, but at least no vomiting. Went to the doc...its not pregnancy related, its a bug that is going around (Viral infection?)...I was ths 4th case he had seen today... it passed in a few days and told me to stay at home until today....

also have some anti-nausea pills too at home if I need them. I was checking my work emails from home which my work seems happy about... and otherwise, just sleeping ...and watching more Nip/Tuck,... =)

Possum has been moving around like she wants to win a medal in the "how can we make mummy as uncomfortable as possible" Olympics....But, its still sweet at the same time.

She has been sticking something small, boney and roundish (knee? elbow) up under my b00bs and often out to the side...its freaky to think that my uterus goes all the way out to my hips!!! Sometimes she scares me as it does it at random times...like while I'm pe.eing or watching t.v....

And she usually hiccups a lot...at least 3 x 5 minute sessions a day....usually in the morning when I'm about to get up, during the day and then at night when I am about to go to sleep. The Slvak has felt them numerous times....v.cute.

Nothing else to report. Just riding out my stupid work days left (7 TO GO! including today!) and seeing my sister a lot....which as nice as we drifted a part in the last few years...Possum is bringing us closer together =)

My first baby shower is this weekend on Saturday night..,...its more like a Hens party =) with alcohol (not for me! lol) and naughty games....My "FAMILY" one will be 2 weeks later and during the day.

Ok, Im off to read all your blogs now....

Please think of Mrs Woggie....she had some bad news for the 2nd time in as many months =(

I got tagged - and I suck at them!

2008-10-20T15:12:00.002+11:00

I have been tagged my Mrs Woggie...and Im so hopeless I can't even (hmn, weird, I just typed in "endo" instead of "even"...Freudian slip?!?) link to her from here...

Shes over at "Creating New Life, not as easy as it seems"

Seems I have helped her in some way =)...naaaw....warm fuzzies inside! (although, she has helped me more than she thinks!!)

So the questions, if I have tagged you are (just cut and paste and answer them on your blog!)

1. Do you have the same friends since childhood? Yes, P. Known her since year 2 when we were about 8...so thats 17 years now. Most of my friends are uni friends and forum friends (yes, I have met them in Real life, many times =)

2. What do you value most about your friends? That they appreciate even the quirky things about me that others might think is weird. Like My facination with b00bs...flashing them and feeling theirs when drunk =)

3. Are your friends sounding boards? They can be. Although I tend to whine to the Slovak more =) He really is my best friend though.

4. What is your favorite activity to share with friends? Must agree with Woggie here...eating chocolate or anything sweet =)...hanging out and just "being", not neccesarily doing anything...

Ok...I guess I have to tag someone now!

Well, I am rapidly losing readers, or, they are about to pop with babies...so, I will keep it to;

Io at http://damnthatstork.blogspot.com/
and
http://baillyblog.blogspot.com/

xoxoxo

Friday Funnies!

2008-10-17T11:49:00.003+11:00

Seems Mrs Woggie needed some thing to cheer her up!

please bear in mind, these are not as funny as the ones I used to have.....will have to post those from home now.

but these are still midly entertaining....

tell me which one you liked the best!

Our Chubba Bubba - 31 Week 3D scan shots...

2008-10-13T09:35:00.005+11:00

***BEWARE****

3D scan shots of our baby...so, if you are feeling a little emotional about LTTTC, maybe give this post a miss?

I would totally understand if you did.

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Chubba face...bum chin and cheeks...

hand and face in front of her face....

then her FOOT in front of her face....stubborn thing =) Takes after me....

said foot...

Gorgeous liddle face =) big lips...and you can see her long eyelashes =)

Kneee, back, elbow and foot...

er cute cankle =)

So, that will probably be the last time we see Possum until she is born, unless something is wrong.

its still so strange to feel her and see her and still hard to believe there is really a baby in there...I don't think I will believe it until she is born.....

Untold Pregnancy symptoms...

2008-10-10T13:13:00.002+11:00

I know I know, its FRIDAY (YAY!) so I should be posting Friday Funnies...

But, I promised I would do this last post (or even, post before last?!?).

Anywho, I thought I would go through some of my symtoms that I have experienced...some which I expected and some I didn't. Some are gross...please beware =)

First Trimester

* nausea - what they don't tell you is you might not actually chunder (ew, gross word!) but you will feel like it...all the f**king time! "Morning" sickness means nothing...it should be "mourning" sickness...

You might not be able to eat anything, or only eat boring ass food like bread and butter....

I had to go on tablets that were only semi-safe for the baby.

Don't be worried about the baby though. S/he will be fine...unless you get really dehydrated. Just keep getting a check up to be monitored...

* Tiredness - I slept fine throughout the night, but it just wasn't enough. I was going to bed at 8 pm some nights and didn't have the energy to do anything...

* Gas - This is one of those gross ones...I had the worst gas anyone ever could...I started winning at f@rting competitions with my husband (hey, thats a pretty big feat!). Apparantly it is due to all the extra hormones and something to do with the digestion system...not sure how it works.

I had to tell my husband that it might be like this for awhile, and not to be too grossed out...as otherwise he would get a pregnant b!tch slap...esp adter all the ones I had to sniff =S

* itchy tummy skin - due to the growing...but, also when Posusm started moving, it felt like the skin underneath was irritated...this generall moved onto bubbles and then tiny kicks.

* oily @ss hair - hehe...as in, REALLY oily hair...on your head...not your butt! hehe. I had to go from washing my hair once every 2 days to daily. It also went stringy and darker...that passed in the 2nd trimester though.

I'm sure there is more, but I can't remember that far back.

2nd Trimester

* You want to eat everything in sight - Perviously I wasn't eating much at all...then I had a craving for salty foods and couldn't stand sweet stuff.

2nd Trimester, I could eat EVERYTHING....and often did...I was grazing all day.

* Sore joints in legs - often called "round ligament pain". mostly at the top, near my hips...due to the muscles streching and holding up my gargantuine (sp?) uterus. I had to start soaking in baths using a muscle relaxer which seemed to help.

* sore butt - honestly, it felt like I had no fat on my butt....which was obviously not true! I had plenty of cushioning...someone it felt very boney. Not ideal for long flights or car rides...

* itchy b00bs - moreso the n!pples...they even started to go dry and flake a little bit =S.

3rd trimester

* Feeling heavy / weighed down - it feels like I have someone pulling down on my tummy..and only my tummy...and that it weighs 20 kilos...

* insomnia - I just can't get comfortable at all anymore...pillows between my legs and wedged under my belly only somewhat help. My legs just feel restless and want to move...having a hot shower or bath right before bed seems to help

* too many bowel movements - and somewhat more watery in texture. gross, I know. I had to take half an Imod!um tablet even though Im not meant to, as I was desperate...the midwives didn't seem too concerned.

* no energy again - unlike in the 2nd trimester.

* more hormonal - than any other time in the pregnancy...many fights as a result =) Hormones also blamed as a result.

* Can no longer see my pun@ni - *sigh* . I tried to teach the Slovak to shave it, but he was worried he would cut me. He ended up pressing so lightly that it ripped the hair out, rather than cut it =S . Last shower I shaved it blindly, thinking it would be like when I put on my lipstick without a mirror.

...bloodied towels later, I have decided that I might have to force the Slovak to do it again!

(only a minor wound...I mean cut...not even. and it wasn't on any edges or any bits...just on the front)

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Sadly, Annie from Journeys to Motherhood has deleted her blog. She was worried about her privacy as her SIL was a bit of a snoppy b!tch....

Very sad, but I will be keeping in contact with her if anyone wants to forward any messages on. I'm sure I will make a post once Jnr arrives =)

Have a good weekend girls! We are getting our 4D scan with our family on Sunday =) get to see Possums little face again....

Friday Funnies and 30 week belly shots!

2008-10-03T10:26:00.003+10:00

Hmn...these are NOT as good as the photos I had before..of the funny little LOLCATS. I will try to get my sh!t organised for next week though =)

This was the best I could come up with...=)

And under that, are my 30 week belly shots. They will only stay up for a few days...

30 week photos!

I took these MYSELF....and without make up on! so please be kind =)

Movies and things you don't want to see

2008-10-02T10:51:00.003+10:00

Ok, so I stole this from another site...but I wholeheartidly agree. I even added my own one at the end...

http://creatingmotherhood.com/2008/09/

Sex and the City Movie - "I know I’m in the minority because everyone loved this, but aside from the fact that it was just a horrible, boring, asinine movie, the fact that (a) Charlotte got pregnant on accident at 40+ after many falied IVFs and said that her doctor says it happens all the time was enough to have me literally screaming at the TV, and (b) they made her seem like a psycho for wanting to be conservative while pregnant, even after a miscarriage and waiting like 7 years for a healthy pregnancy, and the end message was do what you want, not that it’s ok to be scared after what you’ve been through, were both enough to have me literally screaming at the TV. Holy run-on sentence. Sorry." (submitted by Busted Babymaker)

She’s Having A Baby–"first dad goes through and identity crisis because he can’t knock up his wife the second she dumps the pills. Then we are taken through BBT’s in the middle of the day with intercourse following immediately there after. Then there is the dramatic c-section delivery in which dad is not invited and he thinks he has lost his child. Oh yes, not for the faint of emotion" (submitted by familyoftwo98)

Candy- "an otherwise fantastic Heath Ledger movie about heroine addiction, however his girlfriend has a micro preemie that lives for a few minutes and dies. It was very realistic ( I work in Labor and Delivery) and horrifying." (submitted by Jeani)

Juno: great snarky movie about teen pregnancy. Some hard to watch scenes concerning adoption and infertility. (submitted by several)

7th Heaven: "Random girl knocked up and blames Simon. Lucy has a late miscarriage and then goes through some really dark times. All married sisters end up pregnant at the same time and all strangely with twins." (submitted by reader Jen)

My own added:-

Queer as Folk - Lesbian couple already have one child and try for another. The chosen potential birth mother has endo and goes to the doctor…she has it "fixed" in his office and its over in 2 minutes….she drove herself home her partner didn't even know about it till afterwards. She also gets pregnant the first cycle after the 'procedure'.

PFFFFFFFFFT.

What have you seen where you just think "whhhhhhhhhhat?!? what a load of B.S!"

2nd Post of the day - Steve Don't eat it!

2008-09-30T11:59:00.000+10:00

oh man... this is hilarious and gross at the same time...

Its a blog about a guy who eats weird sh!t and posts pictures.... eghhhhhhhhhhh.

http://www.thesneeze.com/mt-archives/cat_steve_dont_eat_it.php

These are all my favourite quotes... I have a few!

* If you've ever smelled a can of dog food, it's just like that. Only imagine you are opening the can while your head is wedged in a horse's ass.

* As I attempted to fish out a "good one," I couldn't help notice the alarming skin texture. For all those times I wondered what it would be like to gnaw on my grandmother's thigh, I was about to find out

* Beggin' Strips slogan is "Dogs don't know it's not bacon!" Newsflash: Dogs are retarded. Mine used to eat his own vomit, and wag his tail while he did it. I'll be the one to decide if this stuff tastes like bacon or not.

* Actually, the little pile inside looked kinda like baked beans. It also smelled kinda like baked beans. If they were baked in the filthy heat of Satan's asshole.

* The entire experience is difficult to describe, but if you can remember back to the very first time you made out with a hobo's ass, it's a lot like that

* Don't worry, I checked the ingredients before I tasted it. "Smoker's lung" was not on there.

* But what caught me off guard was the crunchy cocoon. Silk my ass. This was like chewing on tiny bones. The good news is I was immediately distracted by the unexpected squirt of briny liquid that shot out into my mouth. A little heads up would have been nice. (Am I right, ladies?)

*I can't wait until next year. I will eat the shit out of that tree

Go and read it...look at the photos....hilarious =)

Braxton Hicks are a b!tch!

2008-09-30T10:19:00.002+10:00

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I just had a few minutes of BH contractions....talk about uncomfortable.....

G0d...I will need drugs when I go into labour, won't I?!?! Lol.

No no, it will be fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine! I will be fine with just Morphine!!!

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Not much other news....Feeling nauseas...feels like I am back in the third trimester again....now just with a bigger belly...

Oh, and I just miss out on the new proposed Paid Maternity Leave Scheme by 2 months...we would get 18 weeks paid maternity leave (minimum wage of $555 per week) and 2 weeks for the Slovak.

Damn.

I don't think Possum will wait another 2 months =) Nor would I want her too.

Oh well....Hopefully it will be around for the next bubba....which won't be for many years =)

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Next Post - symptoms in pregnancy that no-one ever tells you about!...

Damn s*x dreams!

2008-09-29T10:51:00.006+10:00

This is rediculous! I am having at least one VIVID dream every night now.

Saturday night it was of The Slovak and I ...nice to have him involved for a change =). Except, while we were going at it, he was also doing stuff to some random asian girl =O

Then last night, I had ANOTHER dream about the Slovak's brother =O Its like the 3rd of 4th one!

We started going at it, then his father walked in on us and told us off...BUT, I was Jnnifer Garner, so it wasn't really me so I deny all responsibility =)

why can't I ever have a NICE s*x dream?!?

anywho...better than having a dream about breastfeeding a cat....hehe. Weirdo Annie!

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I am currently looking up photos of babies born at 30 weeks to see what Possum looks like inside...and to see how many make it if they are born that early...

I know, I'm sick =S

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Annie was so sweet on Friday...she bought me a huge present which I then proceeded to accidentally use as a weapon....many shins were taken out!

Below is a progression of photos The Sovak took of me opening it at home!

Please excuse me looking like sh!t!

and my weirdo face I am pulling here...

THANKS ANNIE! very very cute! We already put it together! =)

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Here is also some updates Charlie photos...

2nd Post of the day

2008-09-26T15:10:00.003+10:00

Coz I'm bored...and I can...

Quiz - anyone else bored enough to do one with me?!?! =)

If your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say?
Uh - I know! I have a big belly and felt kicks!

When was the last time you flew in a plane?
2 weeks ago from Europe. And will fly to Tasmania in a month

What did the last text message you sent say?
"Sorry, I only turned on my phone now! I didn't bring it!"

What features do you find most attractive in the preferred sex?
physical or personality wise? Eyes and shyness to answer both.

What is a goal you would like to accomplish in the near future?
Give birth with as little trauma to all parties concerned as possible.

When is the last time you had a massage?
2 weeks ago...another in 3 weeks time

What was the last TV show you watched?
Seinfeld...on D.V.D

What are your plans for the weekend?
Girls day out with my sister!

If your significant other asked you to marry them TODAY what would you say?
Same thing I said when he originally asked me - "Of course!"

Have you ever been to a strip club?
No...have heard enough stories from my hubby!

What is the best ice cream flavor?
chocolate! or anything with toffee / caramel!

Last phone call?
My husband

Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
my sneakers...

Do any of your friends have children?
only one...she is my age with her 3rd on the way!

What do you do at work?
talk about peoples holidays!

Who was your last kiss?
my hubby...or the cat, can't remember =)

How did you get one of your scars?
Using a knife for the first time to cut an orange unassisted when I was a kid...I chose a blunt knife which sliped and sliced my thumb to the bone instead of the blinkin' orange

Have you ever cleaned up someone elses vomit?
Gawd no...but, that will change soon I presume!

What was the last thing you ordered at McDonalds?
Bacon and Egg Mc Muffin...I LOOOOOOOOOOVE them!

What is your favorite colour to wear?
black and red

What is the longest plane ride you have ever been on?
Bangkok to Frankfurt...11 hrs....after an 8.5 hr flight to Bangkok from Sydney!

What is the longest road trip you have ever taken?
ah, probably from Sydney to Vic boarder via the coast...8 hrs?

What was your 1st alcoholic beverage?
Raspberry cruiser! On my 18th birthday!

What was your last alcoholic beverage?
ah, some vile free drink that we got at the Mardi Gras this year....

Friday Funnies!?!?

2008-09-26T11:35:00.002+10:00

Damn work.

They made us clean out our computers as we were using too much memory. So, MOST of our photos had to go...damn it!

And, I didn't think ahead last night....I should have put them from my home computer on photobucket or a USD stick.

Sorry girls! How bout making me laugh?!!? hehe.

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In other news...I also forgot my camera. So you will mis sout on seeing Annie and my's pregnant bellies...I'm sure Annie is REALLY upset about that =)

The issue below has been sorted...my sis spoke with her b.f and they have organised another day. YAY!

Also, my bosses loved my report on my trip! YAY! I was really worried I wouldn't have the same bullsh!t capabilities I used too (you know, back in the ol' uni days) and being pregnant and all...I thought it mightn't be what they were after.

But, both told me how comprehensive, up to date and great it was! more than once! I am so pleased....it took me 2 weeks on and off to finish it.

Also, I don't know if I told you guys about a mistake I made at work back in April (a few days before my BFP!) where I invoiced a client the WRONG direction on a cruise! And we didn't pick it up until it was time for them to go!

yeahhhhhhh, not good! We had to purchase another cruise, costing us over $8 k....

well, we filled an insurance claim, of which I was put in charge, and they are SENDING US A REFUND! YAYYYYYY! of just under $8 k.

Very very good outcome. It was such a black mark against my name, and now its all but forgotten....

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I took my first iron tablet last night...and I'm not sure if its coincidence or not, but it was the first time in a week I didn't have to get up to pee in the middle of the night! Amazing!

When is it ok to cancel on someone?

2008-09-25T14:02:00.002+10:00

Ok, background story;

My sister J turned 21 a month ago (while I was overseas) and we agreed I would take her on a girly day out, and buy her clothes or shoes and stuff as her present (she always needs them).

We planned it for this Saturday and were going to have lunch and see a movie etc. It was going to be almost the full day etc.

The Slovak was going to go and get his oil changed with his dad, which was good as I would have been bored shitless. J has a new car from my mum for her b'day (lets not go there!) so she was going to pick me up.

great. perfect. Looking forward to it.

The Slovak told me the other night not to get too excited....I said, she won't cancel on me, shes not like my father...

Notice how I say "was" in the above story?........

She rang up today and cancelled. She said its her boyfriend's parents birthday and they want to go to the beach. Apparantly he said they would be upset if she didn't go. I asked why they couldn't do it on Sunday, but they "have plans". She can't go out with me on Sunday either as she has to study for an exam....

I couldn't really talk as I was at work, but I did let on that I was dissapointed. I then msgd her and said it sucks as I will be at home alone without a car as The Slovak will be out...and that it sucks that they told her last minute and can't change their plans but expect her to change hers. *sigh*

I emailed my mum to ask if she was free Saturday, as she lives near the Slovak's parents...she wont mind being a back up =)

but yeah....just a little sad right now....and pissed of at the boyfriends parents! Dudes, you know your birthday is coming up! Give some fucking warning!

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In other news, the Birth Centre called me today. Apparantly my bloods show I have low iron so I have to get some iron tablets today. I'm hoping thats why I have been feeling a little off this last week.

I went to bed last night at 8:30 last night. I think this is a first...well, since my early trimester morning sickness days...The Slovak was sweet, he came to bed with me and we chatted for about an hour before we feel asleep. Possum was moving around like a mofo which was nice =)

I have also been feeling a bit nauseas.....

oh well, as the Slovak always tells me, it has so far been a "textbook pregnancy". so, in a way, thats good =)

Only another month or so until I finish work! yay! Which is around the time that Annie over at Journey to Motherhood thinks she will give birth! 2 weeks early!

I told her shes 'dreamin' ......now jnr will be overdue by 2 weeks =) hehe.

Im such a b!tch.

My growing belly reflects my worry * edited *

2008-09-23T10:39:00.004+10:00

The Slovak has a male cousin M who is a year older than him. He got married to his high school sweetheart in the year 2000 and fell pregnant in 2005. I don't know if they were waiting or trying for a baby during those 5 years. There were family rumours that this baby was a result of I.V.F and possible doner eggs/sperm....I didn't really believe any of this as the Slovak's family has no idea about I.V.F and probably added their own 2 cents in....Hell would freeze over before I asked either. Its none of my business and they would tell me if they wanted me to know.

Everything was going well with their pregnancy. M's wife, J was even taking mock bets about the gender and due date. I said "boy" as I couldn't picture her with a girl at all, just a little boy.

J gave birth to a stillborn girl at approximately 7 months (I'm not sure exactly how far she was and don't really want to ask). That day started with a routine check up...until the doctor couldn't find the heartbeat. They had a scan which also couldn't find a heartbeat. Judging from the growth of the baby since the last check up, the baby had only died the day before or less....

J chose to gve birth rather than have a c-section. Her little girl, Gabrielle (after the Angel) was born almost full size, and was beautiful. They have a photo of them holding her, with tear streaked faces.

That funeral was the most traumatic funeral I have been too, and that includes my own favourite grandmother's. I couldn't stop sobbing, and even the Slovak was crying. The pink coffin was so little...the father carried it himself from the church to the cemetary, sobbing the whole time...almost falling under the seeminly light weight...

*** getting tingles down my spine now and tears in my eyes whilst re-living this***

It was just awful. I remember when I first found out she was pregnant, I was SO jealous! Not that I had any right to be, the Slovak and I were only just engaged and weren't even thinking about TTC. Then she lost the baby....and I felt so so guilty. Like I had caused Gabbys death.

Ever since then, I have been estatically happy when she had her 2 boys, A (3 now) and H (5 months).

It is interesting how I have guessed many genders correctly, but was incorrect with J....but, I was right in a way, as I could only see her with a boy...

I have never forgotten Gabby...I think losing a baby is the worst thing you can ever live through and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy...I couldn't imagine ,......just.....I couldn't....

I mentioned baby Gabby in our wedding Order of Service Booklets under a section about those who couldn't be with us anymore....J and M saw this and started crying at the wedding. They then thanked me at the reception, amazed that I remembered their baby. I told them she would never be forgotten.

M's mother then rang my MIL a few days after the wedding asking if it was her idea to mention Gabby in the booklets and was amazed when she found out it was my own doing. But really, it was the least we could do.

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What does this have to do with me? Well, I think I am about the same gestation as what J was when she lost little Gabby.

I don't know what the Slovak and I would do if we lost out little possum. We love her (or possibly him) so much already. We feel her kicking, and have seen her beautiful little face (and foot). What if one day, her heart just stops? For no reason? And we don't find out until it's too late?

*sigh *

sorry for the depressing post...its rediculous, I know. I had a check up just the other day for g0ds sake, and Possum was wriggling and her heartbeat was great.

***edited to add:

I know this post is stupid in itself...here I am, almost 29 weeks pregnant and whinging...again. I am so sorry for those who have lost a pregnancy...you are all truely amazing.

Its just always at the back of my mind. If it can happen to J, it can happen to me.....

Friday Funnies Returns! + Belly shots

2008-09-19T08:52:00.005+10:00

Happy Friday Everyone!!

Which one do you like best?!?

28 weeks 2 days Tummy shots...taken this morning! So, this is what I look like RIGHT now!

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And to compare with my 4 week belly shot.....

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Another quick post

2008-09-19T08:52:00.004+10:00

In response to Annie's comment...

yes, still an innie!

although, I am busting for it to be an outie, as I want to give it a good clean out! ew.

When did yours pop?

oh, and GO AND UPDATE YOUR BLOG missy!!! and post some tummy pics =)

and thanks Io for your comment =) very sweet.

More Poland photos + Prague

2008-09-18T11:11:00.004+10:00

There is a post at the end also =)
(hmn, the photos have been cut off a bit to the right...but you get the point =)

PRAGUE

Chastity Belt - Torture Musem

Toture saw - they used to hang you upside down and cut you from your privates...

CESKY KRUMLOV

WARSAW OLD TOWN (Warsaw was totally bombed during WWII. All you see was re-built)

These photos show Warsaw used to be a fortress town....

ROYAL WILANOW PALACE

POLISH COUNTRYSIDE

YASNA GORA MONASTERY - famous for its Black Madonna painting that performs miracles

AUSCHWITZ/BIRKENAU CAONCENTRATION CAMPS

Post where they hung 10 escapees...

If anyone has any questions, feel free to ask!

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In other news...I am obsessed with Bacon and Egg McMuffins frm Macca's. I have had 3 this week, and I only started work 4 days ago....Its just something about that combination of egg, bacon and yummy yummy fake American jack cheese (here in Australia, our everyday cheese is much lighter in colour and not as plasticky...)

what else? Possum is doing well...kicking/wriggling a lot. I am going to the hospital for some bloods this Sunday, and my 4D scan will be in a months time....

xoxo

Some Europe Photos - Part 1

2008-09-17T09:25:00.006+10:00

Here is the first lot of my photos of Poland...more to come, hopefully tomorrow. I don't have any of Warsaw old town, or Auchwitz Concentration Camp, or Prague here.

ZAKOPANE - mountains on boarder of Slovakia and Poland. We went on a beautiful raft trip on a hot day...

My friend laughing at her new scarf.....

Myself and P in front of a 300 year old country church...I am about 26 weeks here

WARSAW - capital of Poland...

Pawiak Prision (where Nazi's tortured Poles)

Warsaw Uprising Museum - Nazi Plane

KRAKOW - Old capital of Poland

Wawel Cathedral

Old Town

Salt Mines - EVERYTHING you see here is made out of salt...everything!

Last one - me looking huge =)

I'm back!

2008-09-15T15:19:00.002+10:00

Miss me?!?! I missed you all like you wouldn't believe!!! I tried to log on and read some of your blogs, but I rarely had more than a few minutes online...and I couldn't really concentrate =)

Poland and Prague were great, but I am SO SO happy to be home! I missed the Slovak too much...and I think he missed me and Possum even more...he told me he cried after he dropped me off at the airport * nawwwwwwwww *

I will try to post some pics tomorrow...

Possum is fine...kicking a lot today. Shes prob not used to the weird sleeping patterns I have had to put up with...and I don't blame her. I have a blood test at the hospital on Sunday so I guess everything else will be checked too...

on countdown...less than 100 days now =O....in fact, less than 3 months. Holy f**k!

Im off to check your blogs now...I see Annie over at Journey to Motherhood hasn't posted since BEFORE I LEFT!!! *tsk tsk tsk! * Even I blogged while I was overseas, lol.

I spoke to her on a forum and she seems fine...hopefully this post and all your subsequent badgering via comments on her site will help =p

From Poland!!! Emails to my friends/family

2008-09-02T07:11:00.002+10:00

Just to keep you guys updated =)

Email number 1;

Hi Everyone P and I are at an internet cafe in Warsaw Central Rail station...the closest internet cafe we could find. Its only around the corner from us.

It took me quite awhile to get here...the flight to bangkok was good, I had a whole row to myself and slept lying down...most people had a whole row to themselves.

On the way from BKK - Frankfurt, it was packed! But luckily I got an isle seat and sat next to only one other person,. The New bangkok airport was amazing, so much better than the last one. There were plenty of shops and airconditioning! I only had time to go walk from my arrival gate to my departure gate, even though had 90 minutes...shows how big the place was. It was nice to go for a walk after sitting/laying down so long. thai airways were amazing...lots of space, always on time, and very friendly staff....still crappy food though.

Frankfurt airport was a dissapointment after BKK...old, small and with only shop. Thank god I had a book to read, as my flight was delayed by 2 hours. Luckily I again had whole row to myself and this time sat next to the window. Flying between Germany was really interesting...lots of smog in Germany and very clear in Poland...I could see lots of flat farm land...it had just been raining so everything was clean (and green!)

I met P at the airport and we found our transfer (after calling him as we couldn't find him). Our driver was really nice, he spoke more English than I expected. We arrived at the hotel and I finally got to change my clothes and have a shower...then we both feel asleep. We were meant to meet the group at 5 pm but P put the alarm on for 4:30 AM and so we slept in. Luckily they rang us and we met them at 6, which is when half the group got there anyway....not sure why they decided to meet so early.

We went out to dinner to a Polish restaurant that had folklore dancing and singing. We have spoken to a few Aussies on the tour (all older) with most being American (a few younger ones). The older American ones seem to whinge a lot, and we only just met them! The complain about the number of people on the tour (they were told a maximum of 20 ppl?!? there are 34...it doesn't seem large to us at all), about the food, where they sit on the bus, waiting for others etc....Luckily we have a few Aussies and younger American's to keep us sane!

The food was ok tonight, but the dancing was a lot of fun. We made friends with an American Polish guy and his girfriend who are our age. She got up to dance when they were hunting for "fresh meat", and we peer pressured the guy into a "cracking the whip" contest....he lost...badly, but it was fun to watch anyway!

Tomorrow we really start the tour...a city tour of Warsaw and then SHOPPING! hmn, I will have to get out Polish Zloty as I only have euros...and I have to be careful not to buy too much, as I 18.6 kilos and I am only allowed 20 kilos per bag!...so...might have to buy another small portable one to take on the plane if I buy too much =)

We haven't seen much of Warsaw, but we drove past a few parks and tree-lines streets. We also saw a WW2 monument that I have spotted in books and on the internet, but the guide didn't mention it...probably tomorrow. It was a sculpture made of dark iron...a wagon filled with crosses and a few Jewish headstones...and many rail planks with inscriptions on them...its only a few blocks from our hotel.

We are on the 31st floor with a great view...at first they gave us a double room and we had to change to twin...I wondered why they called me MR Endobaby! I looked awful when I arrived, so they might have thought I was P's boyfriend =) We have a great view, and can see the old town clearly. Warsaw is quite a modern city and the old town sticks out as all the buildings (well, most) are a light red colour etc. Thats all for now...more later, when I have some photos and after we have been on the tour!!!

Email # 2;

Hi Everyone

Just a quick one today as its almost 11 pm here and we just travelled 2 hours to get here. We are in Zakopane, which is a mountain resort near the Tatra Mountains (border with Slovakia, down south). I haven't seen anything yet as when we arrived it was dark, but apparantly our breakfast room overlooks the main mountain.

Today we went to Jasna Gora Monastary which has the famour BLACK MADONNA painting...then we went to Auschwitz (you have all seen Schindlers List and other war movies right?)...THEN we went to wher Pope John Paul II was from...a small town close to Auschwitz...we had Pierogi there and "Popes cake", which basically a vanilla slice loaded with vodka or smething similar. Unfortunately I couldn't have much of that...

Today was a busy day, but it was the busiest of our tour and should calm down now. Warsaw was amazing, not what we had expected. Very modern, with the city tour HUGE! we spent awhile going through one part and turned into an alley to discover a whole nother section...

The group is very friendly...not as much complaininy anymore =)...well, I lie, one woman, lets call her "Jenny from the Bondocks" (what are bondocks anyway) who doesn't seem to like anything....we try to stay away from her as we aren't going to let her spoil our tour! The others are all really friendly and we often eat our meals with them. There are 5 other Aussies on the tour (out of 34 total)...us 2, 3 from Hobart, Tasmania who booked through us (apparantly I spoke to their agent? They remembered my name!!!) and 2 from Brisbane. They are father and son and are both short and bald and look like twins. We often eat with them....they are VERY Aussie =)

I have been trying to get everyone to use what little polish they know...not that I know a lot, but its fun to use what I DO know! P and I often try to say thankyou, hello, How much? and I could count if I needed to....

Ok, I am about to nod off....oh, and for those who asked, the baby is fine =) She kicked a lot during a Chopin recital in Warsaw...P felt her when she was going crazy...the song was called "raindrop"....

Good night everyone...or good morning for you as I think its 6:30 am there!!!

Baby shower invites + Letter to daddy from Possum...

2008-08-28T11:45:00.004+10:00

Holy Crap!!! I leave tomorrow!!! How did this all happen so quickly?!?

I have been busy buying last minute things...like 'single serving' shampoo/conditioners (under 100ml...), wristbands for my ah...wrists =) to avoid motion sickness on the coach...

I have to go and get some books...and pick up my photos that I got developed yesterday...my baby shower invites will be in that lot also, and will look like this;

(I got a wonderful woman from a baby blog to make them for me...it was only $25 for 2 sets of invites and 2 versions of the 2 sets...so, 4 in total!)

The pink and white look brighter when printed....

So, back to the trip...its slowly becoming more real...work gave me some Euro's for my meals and I had some Czech Koron's at home from when Mum went a few years ago.

The Slovak is adorable...he doesn't want me to go AT ALL, but for the last few days has really tried to be positive and happy for me.

It will be fathers day while I am gone here (my birthday actually! =) and I bought him lots of mixed chocolates and a card...from the future baby...

want to see what I wrote? Its EXTREAMLY corny! BEWARE!

"Hi Daddy!

This is your little girl here - mummy is helping me.
Happy Early Fathers Day! Mummy said to say sorry for not being here on the real Fathers Day but she said you are such a wonderful daddy and husband and that you would understand.
I haven't met you yet, but I have heard you reading to me and felt you holding me through mummy. And I have felt when mummy feels good everytime she is around you.
I can't wait to meet you daddy. Mummy thinks you will be the best daddy ever and the greatest gift she cold give me!
Love Possum!"

=)

2nd Post of the day (after $ex dream post! lol)

2008-08-26T11:49:00.004+10:00

Our nuersery so far...I think we are pretty much done now....except for a pic of us that we will put up between Piglet and Pooh Bear in this photo....

Some cute little shoes we bough...probably less than $5 in total from the baby markets

Updated tummy shot - at 24.5 weeks!

And a RARE shot of my face (will only be up for a short time) of me (LEFT) and my friend K for her b'day. She is exactly a month ahead of me, with her 3rd (yes, 3RD!) little girl.

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I had my Gestational Diabeties Test......and I PASSED! 5.8 - is that good?!?

The drink didn't taste too bad, but it was 8 am and I felt a bit gross afterwards....

and K at Creating new life - I knoew, Mr Beans thingy, gross!...didn't look too bad in he dream though! lol

Weird $ex dream I had about the Slovaks Brother!

2008-08-26T09:29:00.002+10:00

hmn...damn pregnancy sex dreams...so strange. Why can't I have a nice, realistic one with the Slovak involved?!?!

Last night I had a VERY REAL dream that I was giving The Slovak's 26 year old brother sex advice, coz he just got a new g.f and is prob still a virgin (this is true in real life too).

I find this funny as its not like I have plenty of experience - I have only had one partner for f**ks sake!

Anywho - so I was giving him tips, then I ended up SHOWING him said tips...I just remember one very real image of me holding his ah...thingy.....ewwwwww.

The Sovak's brother is very Mr Beanish...not attractive at all...big head, big ears...gah. (I know, Im a b!tch!!!)

Anyway - The Slovak thought it was hilarious (when I woke up and told him)...he was in the dream too, in bed, watching us...

So - My Question is - what sex advice would you give to a guy who has never done it? Like, from a females perspective?!? I only remember a few from the dream;

* Skin to skin contact is good, like lying on top of her...but dont squash her obviously (random!)
* ask her what she likes! Dont assume and try to do it all yourself etc
* if you go down there, don't expect her to kiss you.... lol. What would your advice be?!?

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Next post - My Gd Test, nursery + pregnancy photos, "Baby Mama" movie etc.

xoxoxo

Another post for Friday!

2008-08-22T15:38:00.001+10:00

Just to show how gorgeous my husband is =)

He sent me the following email;

cant wait to spend all weekend with you my loves (yes, i said loves, as in both of you :)

nawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

Friday Funnies!

2008-08-22T08:41:00.006+10:00

woo hooooooo! Friday again! Is it just me, or did the week/month go fast?!?

One more week until I fly out! wooooo hoooooooo!

On a side note, someone asked awhile ago about names...not sure if I answered, but we have 2 in mind, and we are going to wait unti she is born to decide...=)

and now some funny photos!

Any one see "the Ring" movie?!?...........

Mamasoon - i think Mrs Woggies blog is out of password mode now...shes at "creating life, not as easy as it seems" over there >>>>>>>>>

9 days till my Europe Trip!

2008-08-20T15:46:00.002+10:00

Its so strange...I fly out in just over a week and it doesn't feel real at all.

I haven't started to get excited....just being practical and getting things sorted, like a European electrical converter....confirming all the hotels I will see etc.

I will miss checking in on all you guys =) I don't blog everyday, but I check ALL your blogs (on my list that is) every week day....don't do anything too exciting in that time ok.

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On a sad side note, I just wanted to tell Mrs Woggie over at "Creating a family, not as easy as it seems" (password protected) how sorry I am that you lost your baby Woggie...=(

You know how excited I was for you when after so long trying and a lap for endo, you got pregnant...

Stay strong honey...it will happen again for you...and this time he/she will stick!

xoxoxo

Firday Funnies!

2008-08-15T09:56:00.002+10:00

From "LolCats"!

Remember - you have to comment and say which one was your fav =) Just so I know what type of humour your guys have =)

Happy Friday everyone!!!

2nd post of the day - in response to Mamasoons comments

2008-08-14T10:43:00.002+10:00

Thanks for your comments honey - you are back from your trip?!?

As for your questions;

* Names - We are tossing up between two right now. The Slovak LOVES option number 1 and isn't a fan of option 2. I LOVE option 2 and don't mind option 1.

So, we are going to wait until the day and see what she looks like...and hopefully the Slovak will let me decide, having just given birth =)

I can tell you they are both vowel names (which we love) and the middle name is my sisters name.

* Yes, I hope you will say the same when your Spring comes around honey =)

And yes, I am happy...very happy and very scared....but mostly happy. I really cannot wait until you have this feeling too =)

xoxoo

Spring is coming...and so is the baby....

2008-08-14T08:49:00.002+10:00

Every night on my way home from work on the bus, we cross a bridge when we leave the city and I can see the skyline as far as the eye can see.

Well, in Summer anyway. In winter, its pitch black. Hell, its pitch black before I even leave work at 5:35 pm, let alone just before 6 when I look out of the bus.

Its cold and miserable and far from the warm sunny Summer that will bring us our baby girl.

A few days ago, I noticed that there was a sunset! I stared at it, thinking "a sunset? I haven't seen one of those since before Winter!"...then I started thinking "wait....sunset means more sun...which means its getting warmer...which means Spring is coming! (2 weeks)....and then SUMMER!....then baby Possum will be HERE!..............OMFG!"

Suddenly Summer doesn't seem so far away...

Christmas always seemed like the end of the year, far far away....now its only 4 months away! =O. And hopefully, Possum should be here BEFORE that.

Very exciting and scary at the same time!

Friday Funnies!

2008-08-08T14:57:00.005+10:00

YAY for FRIDAY!

....First one is for all you girls who need help in the "Breeding" area....

(hope that didn't offend anyone!)

Our last Prime Minister..........

This concludes the stash of demotivational Posters I have...

from next week I will be posting ones that you may have heard of, called "LOL CATS"

here is just one example.........

ALSO - few weird searches that ppl used to find my blog again....

* "ENDO SUPPLIER" - what the?!? if theres a supplier, can we send the muthaf**ker back?!?!

* "Give Woman baby gyno photo" ?!?!?!?

2008-08-07T15:11:00.003+10:00

2nd entry for today....

Endobaby's Mars Bar Slice

INGREDIENTS

* Ratio is 1:1:1.....
* 6 marsbars
* 6 cups of rice bubbles
* 6 tablespoons butter
(or 4,4,4 etc)

METHOD
1. Cut up marsbar as small as possible
2. heat up marsbar + butter in microwave. Stop every 30 seconds to stir...total 2 mins?
3. Pour mixture over rice bubbles, mix.
4. Press into a tray, put in the fridge to set.
5. Add a layer of chocolate ontop (white/milk/dark). I only drizzle it on though...

I told Annie I would give her the above, but...knowing how much I loved chocolate when I was going through endo pain, I thought I would share it with the rest of you that might need it.

make sure its nice and moist...not too much ricebubbles =)

If anyone makes it, you HAVE to post/send me pics =)...and maybe even a piece?!? =)
* add extra pieces of mars bar on top to decorate.

Cute Pics of Annie at "Journey to Motherhood"

2008-08-07T14:17:00.002+10:00

Annie and I just had lunch....

I had my camera in my bag and I took some pics...of course, Annie wasn't too happy with that...she said I "wasn't her favourite person right now"...or something like that. I was too busy trying to make her show her face by squeezing her bo0b...

For privacy reasons, I will only show her tummy and hidden face...

besides...the shot I DID get of her face is....ah..........not...flattering.......much..........hehe.

First the tummy...now 27 weeks......

now the face...well, sort of =)

hmn, I should stop posting photo only posts!

I will try to make my next post more informative =)

I can finally post pics of our scan and new nursery furniture!

2008-08-06T08:47:00.005+10:00

Sorry for the delay...

here are some pics of Possum at our last scan where we found out she was a girl....as you will see, they are not that clear =p

The first one is in 2D...her cute little bottom is on the right, and her legs are out to the left...

This is one of the 3D ones...she is still looking a bit terminator-y, but by our next scan, she would have put on some fat on her face =)

The below photo is FOOT...then FACE...then PLACENTA.....

my little girl likes to be cosy =)

Next, the nursery things....The Slovaks parents bought ALL of this =)

The bassinette I put together myself....

The nursery and new cot....this is to show you what a small room we have =)

The change table that is waterproof and has a bath...we will prob keep this in the bathroom

And now the clothes my aunty sent me just last night!

More updates in a few days =)

Belated Friday Funnies

2008-08-04T09:21:00.004+10:00

I was away from work sick =( I still have it now...damn flu/virus thingy! And of course, I cant take much for it!

thanks for all your comments guys - I think 6 comments is the most I have ever gotten in one hit! haha!

First - A tribute to us Aussies....

And, of course, one to you Americans =p

I am going to Europe for work!

2008-07-31T15:40:00.004+10:00

=) YAYYYYYYYYYY!

My father is Polish but has never been...I have always wanted to go, esp since I am interested in Baroque architecture and WW history.

I work in wholesale travel and my company specialises in Eastern Europe, and they are sending me there in a month!

I will be going to Poland for 9 days / 8 nights, on a tour which goes to Warsaw, Krakow and Zakopane.

Then onto Prague for 3 nights.

Then home! Its only a short trip, less than 2 weeks. I will fly out on Friday 29 AUG and will be back Thursday 11 SEP.

I am flying Thai all the way, and also Polish Lot airlines and Czech air for internal flights.

Here is the Polish itinerary;

Inclusions: 8 nights hotel accommodation
Breakfast daily, 3 lunches & 3 dinners
Transportation by air-conditioned coach
Sightseeing - City tour of Warsaw, Jasna Gora Monastery, Auschwitz Martyrdom Museum, Gubalowka Mountain trip, Raft trip on the Dunajec River, City tour of Krakow, Wieliczka Salt Mine tour, Chopin Recital, 2 folklore shows
Tour escort throughout

Day 1 WARSAW
Saturday After arrival transfer to the hotel.
Check in – the rest of the day at leisure. – HOTEL INSPECTIONS?
Your tour escort will meet you in the lobby of your hotel at approximately 6pm.You will meet the rest of the group and enjoy dinner with folklore show.

Day 2 WARSAW
Sunday After breakfast join a city tour of Warsaw. Highlights of your half-day tour include the Old Town, rebuilt with great reverence after World War II, with its beautiful Old Market Square and the Royal Castle – the former residence of Polish kings. Lunch, then afternoon Chopin concert.

Day 3 WARSAW to ZAKOPANE
Monday Morning departure by coach for Zakopane via Czestochowa. Visit the Jasna Gora Monastery with its famous Black Madonna shrine. Lunch, then continue to Oswiecim to see the Auschwitz Martyrdom Museum. Continue to Zakopane for overnight.

Day 4 ZAKOPANE to KRAKOW.
Tuesday Your morning sightseeing includes a cable ride to Gubalowka Mountain. After your afternoon raft trip down the Dunajec River Gorge, drive to Krakow for overnight. Dinner at local restaurant.

* Wawel underground chapel?

Day 5 KRAKOW
Wednesday Breakfast then join your city tour of Krakow, the seat of Poland’s oldest university and until 1596 the capital of Poland. Afternoon excursion to Wieliczka Salt Mine with its spectacular salt formations. Enjoy the 3-mile-long underground walk through chambers, caves and chapels with statues sculptured from salt. Dinner with folklore show at a local restaurant.

Day 6 KRAKOW – WARSAW
Thursday Morning drive to Warsaw. Lunch, rest of the day free for independent exploring.

Day 7 WARSAW
Friday This morning after breakfast your tour services end. HOTEL INSPECTIONS?

* Ghetto Uprising and Prision
* Jewish museum / cemetery
* Lazinki Palace

Day 8 WARSAW
Saturday Free time – HOTEL INSPECTIONS?

Day 9 DEPART WARSAW
Sunday Transfer to the airport for flight to Prague

Prague is still TBA....

I am SO freaking excited! The Slovak is a little worried of course, but we saw a doctor and she said so long as I keep drinking fluids and maybe get some leg stockings to stop clots, it should be fine!

Possums Gender revealed!

2008-07-28T09:52:00.002+10:00

So - we went for our "Gender determination scan" scan.

We had to get up really early to go to the scan place which is near the airport. We got there with 5 mins to spare and there were a lot of other pregnant women waiting in a really small waiting room. The woman who ran it were really nice... I didn't have to wait long, and we went into this huge room where the lights were dimmed and I actually had a proper bed to lie on....and there were couches for Vlad to sit on with a massive screen that we could both see.

Possum was moving around, but crossing its legs...after 15 mins (appointment was only meant to go for 15 mins) I was afraid she would tell us to go home, but she told me to go for a walk and have a drink etc.

We went to the cafe next door and had a hot chocolate. I jumped up and down and did a few star jumps... went back in and Possum hadn't moved at all!!! She said that she thought Possum might be a certain gender, but wasn't sure. So, we went back out into the cold again, and went for a longer walk...went and got a cold bubbly drink, poked my tummy and we even jogged back to the centre....

when we went back in for the 3rd time, Possum had finally moved!

Possum was uncrossing it's legs, and we found out that it was a

baby....

GIRL!

We saw her little labia, lol. (pics to come!)

Hubby cried when we found out - we were both so happy! Then we rang everyone and told them...Hubbys mum screamed in my ear! We told them next time we had a 4D scan at 30ish weeks they could come.

We are so happy we found out!

Oh - and Hubby's parents bought us a new cot...and bassinette...and change table/bath for the bathroom...pics to come!

Friday Funnies!

2008-07-25T14:33:00.003+10:00

hehehehe.

Scan tomorrow - wish me luck that we will actually get to see Possums bits! =)

I have other exciting work news to share, but I will leave that for next week.

My dads a bit of a bum!

2008-07-23T15:48:00.002+10:00

:? Just spoke to my dad.

"Why do you want to find out what the baby is?!? I find it takes something away from it" =S

... and he kept SAYING IT! (just a warning...my dad is a bit...strange! The Slovak and I call him "Kramer" sometimes! strange strange wavelength!)

so I had a range of responses!
* "When you have a baby, you can decide!"
* "Fine, we just won't tell you!" (he was fine with that)
* "It will help us bond with the baby more"
* "Look, we want to find out and we really shouldn't have to explain ourselves!"

the last one shut him up!
gah!

My searches...

2008-07-23T09:37:00.003+10:00

"suc king the sperm from husband"

...that was one of the latest searches someone from YEMEN used....

made my day! =p haha!

(oh, and apparantly my blog has p0rn terms on it!)

We have a new scan date! ...Following on from the below post

2008-07-22T13:00:00.003+10:00

I have booked into another scan place...

$135 for the "gender determination" package....15 mins + 2 x 3d photos.

Very pleased =) By the naming of the package, it sounds like they wont give up until they find out =).

Its about an hour away though...near the airport =S bummer....

and its 9:30 in the morning.

gah.

Oh well, its worth it! =) and we will get to finally see Possum in 3d!!!

ETA:- here is the website;

http://www.earlyview.com.au/offer.asp

and look at their rooms!

http://www.earlyview.com.au/aboutus.asp

I'm impressed!

Our failure of a day....

2008-07-22T09:57:00.002+10:00

we went for our free scan from the Hospital..... and it was pretty crap

The sonographer didn't let the Slovak tape it...which the other 2 places did.... and then he just sat in silence and didn't tell us what the f**k he was doing or what was what...

Possum was fine, we saw it moving and all its measurements were good.

and then at the end he said he couldn't tell the gender coz it was at a wrong angle! He didn't let me walk around or drink water...and he told hubby that it "wasn't part of the procedue".

pr!ck.

So, now I am thinking of getting a 4d Ultrasound...where they come to your house...its about $230....and you get it recorded and photos etc. Might try to organise it this weekend!

sh!tty sh!t day.

19.5 week belly shot.....

Friday Funnies! eta - tell me your fav one! =)

2008-07-18T10:48:00.004+10:00

TGIF!!! (even though I had the day off yesterday...my hips are "widening" apparantly and this is causing havoc to my left hip socket....and my tummy at the top of my uterus is killing...I guess its all squishing up there! =)

Here are todays 5 funny posters for your enjoyment....

...and the one that almost made me pee my pants.........
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that kids face is freaking priceless!

The next time you hear from me, I might know Possums gender! =).........and we won't tell Annie over at "Journey to Motherhood" till she tells us what Junior is! hehe * evil laugh *

Drama's with my Best friend

2008-07-15T16:22:00.004+10:00

My friend ditched me when I asked her to come to a friends b'day party...she said she "might" be going to the snow.

Then she ditched these plans to go to a freaking house warming anyway!

And it has happened again and again...she didn't come to the Mardi Gras and many other parties. She always leaves me hanging and then goes out with her friends at the last minute...

heres the email exchange....

P - You upset at me about not coming to M's party? Or just busy?

E.baby - Hey - I am just a little upset that recently everything I invite you to you decline.
And everything you invite me too, you already know I am busy.
Obviously I have done something wrong? (*I knew I didn't do anything wrong*)

P - no don't be ridiculous. I've actually had things on. just bad timing/coincidence i guess. (*her guy who lives in England is over and she is mucking around...wont even let me meet him*)

e.baby - It kinda reminds me of my father.
He would never plan anything in advance with me in case he was "busy"...even if it was weeks / months in advance...he would keep me hanging on, saying "maybe"....like I was his back up date.
and then at the last minute, he made other plans.
So then I just didn't ask him anymore to do anything.

P - well say you were invited to G's housewarming, and then later M invited to her birthday. which would you go to?

E.baby - Its just that it keeps happening.

You didn't want to say no to B and skiing for M's party, but you blew it off for G's party? Just a bit confusing.

and if I said I would come to their party, I would have yes to begin with (or no), at least showing that I wanted or didn't want to go...I wouldn't leave you hanging....and, a birthday beats a housewarming...like you told me with Ibis birthday and the mardi gras..........and the forum cocktail meet.......x 2.

You don't want me to meet you work friends and you don't want me to meet J.....

You asked how I felt, and I am letting you know. I wasn't going to say anything.

I guess that I am saying (and prob not very well) is that I would love to be the person that you plan to see and sacrifice other things for......I tried to remember if this has happened, and I can't....I am also the person on the receiveing end who lucks out.

My other friends, ones that I am not as close to as you (even forum friends) have dropped other things to spend time with me and do things with me etc.

Makes me not feel very important, you know?

P - dude, you never even call me. lately it's been me calling, emailing, whatever.

No if the skiing is still happening then i will go to that. But M is your friend, not mine. G is my friend, so i'd have to go to that. Plus I would know most people there whereas at M's i would only know you and her. Not to say that i wouldn't have fun. I would have liked to go. The reason i don't say yes straight away is because I already know there are a few things happening around that time... same as the mofos meet up. I said maybe because I knew there was a party happening for girgis and karamvir around that time but didn't know the exact date. Anyway, these guys are always organising things with 1-2 weeks notice... that's what lots of people do. Not everyone gives a months notice. It's inconvenient, but not much i can really do.

of course i do want you to meet my work friends and J. why don't you come this friday to meet my work friends? We are going bowling, then kareoke. i know you don't like kareoke but not everyone's coming to it anyway, so you can get an early night if you want to (well, bowling will finish before 10). I've invited you out with them before, but you haven't been able to make it.

And you know i'm a bit of a spur of the moment type of girl, so sorry for lack of notice at times. Or if i forget to mention things.

As for J, I do want you to meet him. It's just that we don't have a lot of time together. He's in qld right now seeing his family. I'm going to see him wednesday and thursday night. then saturday then he's leaving. Plus it's not that serious yet... you know, he's not my boyfriend... we're not in a relationship. And you haven't been very interested in the whole situation... maybe it's because you feel like i'm excluding you or something. but i'm really not. but honestly you haven't been showing much interest and that's upsetting.

E.baby - I got the feeling you were emailing me so I would ask about J....and if I don't want to talk about him, there doesn't seem to be a lot to say.

I didn't know your school friends either, but I met up with them. You won't know the forum girls or M's friends if you don't. Megs friends not so much, but my forum friends are really important to me and I wanted you to know them too.

I couldn't go before to your work things as I felt sick as a dog, which you know. Anything before this in the last 4 months and its the same reason. Now I am feeling better. I just wanted to go to something simple, like where we can eat and there isn't much physical activity?

as for J- I haven't been interested in the situation as personally I think he is a sleaze and I don't have a high opinion of him. AND, I think you will just be upset in the end. However, I really WANT to change my perception, thats why I wanted to meet him. It doesn't matter if you are in a relationship or not, if hes important to you then I thought I would get involved. Now there doesn't seem to be a point.

btw - forgot to mention that usually when I get home at 7, I have dinner and clean up and go to bed early.

I have been tired most nights...thats why im not going out every night etc.

I barely talk to the Slovak let alone anyone else.

and I cant really talk at work.

P - Well and you never email first. i always email you.

surely on the weekend you could take 5 mins.

the past few times i've called you it's just been at random times to say hi. when i'm getting the bus or whatever, whenever i have time.

E.baby - hey - lets discuss this at another time.

I think we both need a breather and I have a lot of work to do before I go home...that and I have a splitting headache and I don't want to say stuff I don't mean etc.

good idea?

P - not having a problem to begin with?

i'm not passing over the other things, i think this is important. i;ll get to the other things.

i'm just saying you have not been putting in any effort either. it's not good enough to just say you don't have time. if you don't have time then you should at least take 5 mins on the bus or wherever. and you never have credit. what can i do about that??? so go get some credit. if you get the $30 you'll get to call me for 40cents a call. i've told you about this many times, it will save you money in fact. but you've never tried it. so that's the most i can do about it.

E.baby - I never called you from the bus and I never will. its not my style. Please don't badger me about it.

I don't want to spend an extra $10 if I don't have to, and thats up to me.

ok, i really have to finish this stuff....

I will be fair and won't respond to your last email, if there is anything you wanted to add

Glad you all liked my Friday post

2008-07-14T11:47:00.003+10:00

I should do it every Friday!

I was reading my live feedit thingy over there to the right >>>>>, which tells me where my readers are coming from, the time they came and left, how they got here etc. VERY cool stuff! =)

I just read some of the sentences that people have been typing in in searches...which has lead them to me.

They range from the usual endo questions -

* "getting pregnant with grade 4 endo" (I hope it can still be done darl. Im not sure what grade I was, but I was in the middle, if that helps)

* "Does a bulky Uterus mean I can't get pregnant?" (No! I have a bulky uterus. I mean, its not a desierable state to have your uterus, [so I hear], but its not a huge problem either)

to the STRANGE ones!

* "Gyno pee" (?!?!?!)
and
* "Baby make pee photo"................who the f#*k wants to see a photo of baby peeing?!?!

both of those were from South America....go figure!

HAPPY FRIDAY!

2008-07-11T13:29:00.002+10:00

thank f#*k its here!

And to bring a smile to your face, some funnies for you!

And now for the GROSS one!

Oh for g0ds sake - SATC story

2008-07-10T13:40:00.003+10:00

Geeeze you lot are a pain in the butt! lol. (ok ok, so there was only 2 of you)

The truth is - I can't remember the whole freakin' conversation!

It was between myself, my sister and my fathers girlfriend J. My sis and I recently saw SATC and were discussing it with J and I mentioned how the plot line of Charlotte "meraculously" (sp?) getting pregnant after adopting (and years of infertily and multiple I.V.F attemps) was a crock of sh!t....very unrealistic!

Then J piped up, saying that she knows ppl it has happened to etc....maybe because they "relaxed"

=O My head spun around when I heard the R word! Not because it p!sses me off so much, but because I was defending those that have had it said to them constantly....I said "I know MANY infertiles, and the Relax word is their 4-letter word!"

My sister said "really?!?" and looked surprised...and I then I proceeded to say that no about of holidays, resting or RELAXING cures the problems that CAUSES infertility! Stress doesn't cause infertility!!!

agh.

In the end, I think they still didn't agree but decided to leave it at that. My sister is only 20 and doesn't know much about the world.

And Dads g.f J....well, shes in the same age group as my father...and he thought that if I saw a natropath they would cure my endo =S......yeaaaaaaaaah.

btw - I have put a poll up >>> - do you think Possum is a GIRL or BOY? Be sure to post in my comments, so we can keep track of whether you were right or not! ;p ...I see someone has already guessed "boy".......

18 week photos -

2008-07-10T08:53:00.004+10:00

from the ba th! Don't worry, I took out any b00b photos or any mu ff ones! hehe.

***photo removed. Please ask me to re-post if you would like to see them again***

And remind me to post the convo I had with dad about infertility after watching SATC....

I have added some new bloggers

2008-07-08T08:43:00.003+10:00

Namly, "Infertile me", "I.V.F over 40" and "Bailly Family Blog".

Infertile me - shes a friend from a baby forum who had a lap a few weeks ago for severe endo. She only has a few months left to try for her baby before they resort to I.V.F....sound familiar?

I.V.F over 40 - I stumbled on her blog from Stirrups blog roll. She is about to go I.V.F. again. Fingers crossed it works this time for her!

and

Bailly Family Blog - left me a comment. Its really strange, as she had her lap a few weeks after me and is now only about a week behind me with her pregnancy. I'm not sure if her lap is for endo though.

Nothing new with me. Less than 2 weeks till we find out if Possum is a boy or girl...

I heard our Nicole Kidman gave birth to a little girl called "Sunday Rose"...such a beautiful name! Good on her!

Next entry I will tell you about an interesting conversation I had with my father/sister/fathers girlfriend about infertility after watching "S*x and the City".

Tummy shot

2008-07-01T11:10:00.002+10:00

16.5 weeks

...taken at a party I was at on the weekend.

Bubs has been moving around a lot recently! Feels like butterflys or being tickled from the inside...

My hospital appointment - 1 week late I know!

2008-06-26T10:38:00.003+10:00

Last Thursday I went and had my first appointment with the midwives at my local public hospital. I had an interesting experience on my way in (see the below post) but I was ok.

I arrived early which seemed like a big mistake, as I ended up waiting 30 minutes past my appointment time.

I finally got called in. I was weighed (61 kilo's? I'm sure I weighed more than that before we got pregnant...I must have not put much on when I was sick). Then my height was measured (yeah! 171 cm! I was happy to get over the 170 mark, lol). Then I had to give a pee sample...turns out I have a little protein and blood in it, but that is expected at this stage (apparantly?). I didn't realise I needed to go so much until I nearly peed on my hands from the cup overflowing! ew!)

Then I had the interview. We went through my medical history, as well as my husbands and our families. Did we have heart diseases? Blood clotting deficiencies? hypertension? chromosone issues? diabetes and so on...I automatically said "no" so many times that I was surprised that I actually answered "yes" to a question...Had I been se.xually abused? I thought for a second and said "oh yes, I have actually!". Then they continued to ask who, when, if my parents knew etc (my grandfather, when I was younger than 8, yes my parents found out). Also If I was "pene.trated" (EW!)....luckily, no! only some "inappropriate touching" as she put it.

Twas a bit strange telling a complete stranger that, but, a) everyone in my family and all my friends know and b) Im telling you guys now anyway! Its only an issue if I let it be, and I'm not going to let it be an issue.

Then we listened to Possum's heart beat using the doppler. The midwife suggested that I record it on my mobile phone for the Slovak. It was loud and strong and fast and beautiful. First time i had heard it. (The next day at work, I played it for everyone in my office...and my mum and Annie over at Empty Nest).

My scan date is set for the 21st of July. Hopefully we will find out if Possum is a boy or a girl (I am dying to know! How do people NOT find out? crazy people!). Then I have a doctors appointment after that.

This weekend we are moving back HOME after staying at the Slovaks Parent's for the last MONTH. Tomorrow will be the last day that Annie and I get to catch the train to work together, so we are planning a Macca's breakfast! (we are oh so sophisticated!).

The Slovak and I also went to a Baby Market over the weekend. I will post pics of our spoils over the weekend...once we are HOME! (can't wait!)

Im off to read your blogs now!

crazy woman and her child...

2008-06-20T14:40:00.002+10:00

Yesterday at the hospital, I parked the car around the corner and was walking to the entry. A woman was walking past me and she looked So pissed off. She was pushing a pram with a girl about 5 years old and had piss white blonde dyed haid and westie clothes.

She suddenly SCREAMED out "F**k YOU YOU MOTHER F**KING DEAD SET HOE". =O

I was thinking - did a car almost run her over? whats going on?!?

so then, she turns around, and comes up behind me...I'm just praying that I don't get bashed.... She comes up about a metre away and SCREAMS at the little girl "GET OUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT" and when the girl gets out "I F**KING HATE YOUR MUTHA F**KING GUTS".

I was so shocked! What did the girl do? She was quiet, and did everything her mother told her too! The mother was in a rush, so maybe she was being slowed down by the girl in the pram....She kept screaming "HUUUUUUUUUURYYYYYY UPPPPPPPP"

So she took off, ahead of me, off to the Emergency section of the hospital. The little girl was behind, trying to keep up was just awful. Who the f**k screams obsenities like that to a little girl?!? She seems to have been watching too much of Roberta Williams from Underbelly.... And I bet when she got to the hospital, she was all nice to the kid. Man, docs should be called on her!

*Hospital visit update later *

I just felt Possum move

2008-06-19T09:57:00.002+10:00

I was on the escalator going up to ground level from the train station. I had my hand on my belly, down low, and just then it felt like two little fingers were kneading me from the inside out! I even felt it on the outside!

It was down low and to the left....looks like it moved from its usual right spot (where the scan showed it 3 weeks ago).

I just rang the Slovak then, he was excited. Just thought I would let you all know!

and Io - my stomach wasn't that flat to start either, believe me. In fact, once a few years ago, the Slovaks idiot brother asked me if I was pregnant =S . bastard. I didn't talk to him for days. =S

We booked in for our 18 week scan

2008-06-18T10:16:00.004+10:00

Its on the 9th of July. Hopefully we can find out the gender of Possum and it's not crossing it's legs.....which is what *APPARANTLY* happened to Annie over at EmptyNest.

so she says anyway. I personally think they found out and just don't want to spill the beans....which I understand completely! I'm just letting them know that they DONT FOOL ME! =) =) =)

I am 15 weeks today...

this photo was taken half a week ago...My bo0bs look nice in this photo! =)

We also started the nursery...

BEFORE.....

AFTER.....

Nothing else to report....I am feeling better. The only symtoms I seem to have now are tiredness and always needing to pee =S

The Slovak won a $100 voucher in a work competition

2008-06-13T13:58:00.002+10:00

The Slovak is a draftsperson. (Like an architect without the uni degree just in case you didn't know).

His company has just finished designing 3 new display homes, and they gave its employees the chance to name them. You could enter as many names as you liked for the 3 homes, and for each winning name you would win a $100 gift voucher for MYER (do you Yanks/Canadians have MYER over there?).

The theme for the display homes was "the Ponds" as that is the name of the new suburb. The Slovak and I came up with about 5 names per house, but some of his collegues came up with 10 per house!

In the end, three were chosen. "The Prestige", "Rosebrook" and "Cornerstone".

"Cornerstone" was my baby's suggestion! He put it in at the last minute. He ran it by me and I remember saying "yeah, why not? I like it!" lol.

The Slovak just emailed this to me...he's so damn cute;

"we all had company-paid pizza as a little party in the lunch room.

They announced it in a "formal" way in front of everyone.

My boss S was announced first (for "Rosebrook"), then me. I got alot of eye contact prior to the announcement from the bosses, so that was interesting. S's clue from last week made me think too. S knew the results of his and mine for a week already.

And yes, I already have the voucher. They handed them out.eEerybody had a go in the entire office, and they were very thankful for everyone's efforts. The "Cascade" was entered 15 times, as was the "Lily". My work friend P came close to me with the "waterstone". They told him they were undecided about that and mine. He came close. Nobody was pissed, pretty happy for me if anything

xoxo"

My cousin had her baby

2008-06-11T11:11:00.003+10:00

Its a girl! She was born this morning at 6 am, one day past her due date. We suspect her name will be Nevaeh (Heaven backwards).

She only had gas, but tore near the end and had to have surgery (ouch).

I dont know if you remember but I posted when she announced her pregnancy...here is the photo that I posted of her;

She was my hairdresser at my wedding, and she just fixed my hair for the 2nd time that day.

I was extreamly upset when she announced her pregnancy back in November/December last year....that was when I was going through the endo pain from hell, waiting for my freaking lap surgery....

Obviously now things have changed....Our babies will be only 6 months apart. Shame she lives 2 states away though.

I dont really know what else to say...I am mindful that those still trying would find this post difficult, perhaps reading my blog is too.

So, I just wanted to say thank you for sticking around, and by the time Possum arrives, you will all have your BFP....I will keep reading your blogs until you do!!!

xoxo

We went shopping on the weekend - 100th post!

2008-06-10T11:51:00.008+10:00

and bought quite a bit....but there were SALES on, and I ...I mean WE couldn't resist!

Our Nursery theme looks like it will be light brown, cream, neutral colours etc.

This Steelcraft Orbit stroller was on sale...from $279 to $107!!! From Target!

This baby seat was on sale from $300 to $150! 50% off...again from Target....Mine is all black though.

From IKEA we got this funky lamp....we have a few like this already...$79 or $69...not on sale, but cheapish anyway.

Another IKEA light....if we can do it that is....$10!!!

We bought these shelves in white....can be horizontal or vertical....$169 from IKEA.

This chair was Soooo comfortable...and it rocks a little up and down...if it doesn't suit we will put it in the study....it was $169 from IKEA

thats it so far....the cot and change table and drawers will be a pain in the butt I think....

a quick update

2008-06-06T14:47:00.003+10:00

to my lovely commenter:

I dont have an OB, I will be having widwives...but I dont see them for another 2 weeks.

I will be seeing my GP this weekend though...need to go over the NT scans and blood work etc.

thanks for your concern...I'm off to check out your blog now =)

a quick update

2008-06-06T14:47:00.002+10:00

for my lovely commenter;

I dont have an OB, we will be using midwives....but we dont see them for another 2 weeks.

I will be seeing my GP this weekend though...need to go over our NT scans and blood work.

thanks for your concern though =)

Im off to check out your blog =)

Endo pain again?

2008-06-06T11:55:00.002+10:00

f.f. sake.....

The Slovak and I did the deed the night before last. I felt sorry for the poor bugger, he only gets it once a month it seems. So I thought I would be the dutiful wife and let him go for it.

Big mistake.

It felt great at the time, and it was nice being intimate again.

However, the next morning I felt like I was 18 again (6 years ago) when I first got endo (so I believe) and was waiting in the Hospital Emergency, not knowing what was wrong with me. The pain was immense, I could bearly walk or sit.

I still went to work, but I left a few hours earlier. I couldn't cope with clutching my stomach and moaning all the time....my work mates were pissed off, but they can't possibly understand.

Thank god I wasn't bleeding. Possum seems to be safe.

I went home and sleept for 4 hours...took some pain relief (the piss-weak kind that doesn't do much, but is safe for Possum). It seems to be ok today.

*sigh * fark, I hope the endo hasn't grown over the last 4 months since my operation....=S

2008-06-04T15:53:00.002+10:00

I am living at my in-laws house about an hour East of our place.....well, the Slovak and I are. They are overseas for a month and we are looking after their students. I have to cook and clean for 4 students, so 6 ppl in total. An extra 2 hours every day, after I come home from work.

I also have to look after their stupid damn dogs, who aren't big fans of Charlie. Charlie also seems miserable.

I mean, we are getting paid...quite a lot. It just doesn't seem worth it...its like a 2nd job....and its only been a few nights! I haven't been sleeping as I have been stressing about what to cook the next night...if they dont like it, we dont want them to complain to their agency.

Also, we have to lie to them and pretend the Slovaks parents are looking after a sick relative, and "should be back any day" So the threat of getting caught out is stressing me out.

so yeah, thats the latest. Thanks for reading!

*********UPDATE -

Its slowly getting better...they have been eating the food I have been making so YAY!

and - 13 weeks today!

12 week scan photos

2008-06-02T09:38:00.004+10:00

***WARNING***

If you are feeling a bit sensitive right now my blog friends, please beware - there are scan photos below this message.

I only say that as I didn't want to depress anyone if they aren't in the right mood.

And - I totally understand. Take your time ok. xoxoxo

Possum was moving around a lot - and even hiccuped quite a bit. S/he waved, and kicked its legs. Pretty amazing....I almost cried.....

Sucking it's thumb?

My favourites - of Possums face. =)

12 weeks today!

2008-05-28T08:29:00.002+10:00

YAY!

I am still feeling like crap - I hope that passes soon.

in other news - scan is on Friday.

and - my friends mother did the whole "finding-out-the-sex-of-your-baby-using-a-necklace-over-your-hand".

She told me what I thought Possum already was....=)

I wont reveal yet, in case I am totally off!

More after the scan...

Counting down to 12 weeks

2008-05-19T09:24:00.002+10:00

9 days and counting. 9 days until we are more 'safe'. 9 days until I wont be sick any more ( a) I know that line didn't really make sense and b) that I still might feel like crap after the 12 week mark).

We have our scan on Friday the 30th of May, at 12 weeks 2 days. We are having a NT scan (and a blood test).

I told my uni friends on Saturday night. I was going to tape their reactions (as I have been trying to do with everyone we tell), but before I could bring it up, the 4 of us started talking about babies, and E turned to me and said "When are you guys thinking of trying?".....I just couldn't lie again. I have been lying for 6 months, saying "oh, maybe in a few years" and "I am on medication for the endo so we cant try for awhile" etc. It just gets exhausting. So, I just said "oh, I'm pregnant right now".

E didn't believe me...M came up and gave me a big hug. the other M already knew, and was telling E it wasn't a joke.

After that I was able to show how hard it was to keep my heavy meal down.

I think everyone knows now....

And its hard, because everyone is so excited, and I just feel like crap and want to be 16 weeks already. And I know I sound so ungrateful as I know some of the women reading this wouldn't care, they just want to be pregnant.

I am happy, really. It is just taking a LOT out of me / us. Poor hubby hasn't had s*x in months.....

on that note, Im out to check the rest of you out.

Endo = Baby?!?

2 adoptions I am so excited about!

Possum is now 1! (and Merry Xmas =)

"Goodnight Sweethearts...well, it's time to go"

Possums health

Going nowhere fast....

How to wrap a baby - for Pam!

Possums birth story * with photos *

Charlie has been put down...

Possum's Birth Story

The post about my endo coming back...

Gift from a fellow blogger...

2nd post of the day - ***PICS! -***

I don't have time to scratch my a$$!

2nd post of the day! * more pics, taken today*

3 weeks 3 days old....*Pic*

Professional Possum photos

I'm back with possum!

Aunty Piggy has more updates!

This Aunty Piggy should be fired!

This Little PIGGY would like to say....

Somethings happening

I'm still here....

Possum moved back to the wrong position =S

You must all read this funny comment left....

Possum is getting ready to pop!

I'm so excited to announce.......*pics*

You are all sick =)

I thought it was happening last night...*pics*

Just a quick one from me - 2 more weeks to go!

some updated photos...

just a quick one - 1 month to go!

Annie has had her baby...

My Pro pregnancy shots...

Its my last day at work today!

33w4d tummy photo + baby shower pics

No Friday Funnies...Dedicated to Mrs Woggie

We had a scare the other night...

I got tagged - and I suck at them!

Friday Funnies!

Our Chubba Bubba - 31 Week 3D scan shots...

Untold Pregnancy symptoms...

Friday Funnies and 30 week belly shots!

Movies and things you don't want to see

2nd Post of the day - Steve Don't eat it!

Braxton Hicks are a b!tch!

Damn s*x dreams!

2nd Post of the day

Friday Funnies!?!?

When is it ok to cancel on someone?

My growing belly reflects my worry * edited *

Friday Funnies Returns! + Belly shots

Another quick post

More Poland photos + Prague

Some Europe Photos - Part 1

I'm back!

From Poland!!! Emails to my friends/family

Baby shower invites + Letter to daddy from Possum...

2nd Post of the day (after $ex dream post! lol)

Weird $ex dream I had about the Slovaks Brother!

Another post for Friday!

Friday Funnies!

9 days till my Europe Trip!

Firday Funnies!

2nd post of the day - in response to Mamasoons comments

Spring is coming...and so is the baby....

Friday Funnies!

Cute Pics of Annie at "Journey to Motherhood"

I can finally post pics of our scan and new nursery furniture!

Belated Friday Funnies

I am going to Europe for work!

Possums Gender revealed!

Friday Funnies!

My dads a bit of a bum!

My searches...

We have a new scan date! ...Following on from the below post

Our failure of a day....

Friday Funnies! eta - tell me your fav one! =)

More funny searches

Drama's with my Best friend

2nd post of the day - PICS! -

3 weeks 3 days old....Pic

I'm so excited to announce.......pics

I thought it was happening last night...pics